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I feel defeated
4 months ago
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1. I get my first car and license after becoming independent from my horrendous upbringing
2. The entire world shuts down because of Covid the same year and I live out my early 20's completely isolated
3. I work all the way through the worst of it as an "essential worker" and basically become a zombie
4. I get so fed up with the Trump supporters I worked with I start going to college to learn how to code and follow my dreams making video games
5. I graduate nearly at the top of my class
6. AI completely destroys entry level coding jobs
7. I volunteer at """"internships""""" for no pay for a year to get job experience. NDAs prevent me from showing anything I made
8. I start writing more erotica and theorizing making a fat fur game
9. Credit card companies shut down NSFW work through Steam, Itch.io, and probably WAY more things soon
10. Sadness
I really don't know where I'll be soon. I am going to continue learning as much as I can to become relevant again but I see very little hope. I just feel tired y'all.
2. The entire world shuts down because of Covid the same year and I live out my early 20's completely isolated
3. I work all the way through the worst of it as an "essential worker" and basically become a zombie
4. I get so fed up with the Trump supporters I worked with I start going to college to learn how to code and follow my dreams making video games
5. I graduate nearly at the top of my class
6. AI completely destroys entry level coding jobs
7. I volunteer at """"internships""""" for no pay for a year to get job experience. NDAs prevent me from showing anything I made
8. I start writing more erotica and theorizing making a fat fur game
9. Credit card companies shut down NSFW work through Steam, Itch.io, and probably WAY more things soon
10. Sadness
I really don't know where I'll be soon. I am going to continue learning as much as I can to become relevant again but I see very little hope. I just feel tired y'all.
Kaz-The-Caretaker
~kaz-the-caretaker
*huggs*
Jollyguts
~jollyguts
OP
*hugs*
Kaz-The-Caretaker
~kaz-the-caretaker
if you ever need someone to talk to and just relax with, HMU and i`ll do my best to help cheer you up
Xandromeda
~xandromeda
It's not over yet. We're all here for you.
Jollyguts
~jollyguts
OP
It might not be over, but I feel like it is just getting started. I'm going to keep trying. Sometimes my brain is too foggy with anxiety to make clear thoughts, but I'm going to keep trying. I've made it this far. I can't stop now.
Xandromeda
~xandromeda
Yeah, that's a good thought. You can try to help out by calling the credit card HQs and talking to an operator. I tried earlier and they were busy, so it seems like people are making their opinions known.
Endermite0800
~endermite0800
i feel the same way. in my case it is lack of motivation for drawing.
Jollyguts
~jollyguts
OP
Sometimes it is best just to draw / write just for like a minute. It gets the ball rolling for me most of the time.
