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life has become so short-lived today, sadly....

I just want to say... I know where your coming from and I also know very well how uh... difficult... it can be. To write a journal like this, to exist... like this. But it is worth existing. Worth finding the things that help keep you going, even if its hard.

Its weirdly easy to fall into that feeling of failure and let it pile up until you don't feel much of anything anymore. The irony is though, the fact that it bothers you is one of the reasons the world needs you though. Theirs so many people that don't care. And its unfair that your own burdens feel twice as bad because of all that. And you feel you have to apologize and that you should just retreat and be quiet. But that's not true either. And I can prove it to you:

You don't know me. I'm some random nobody that's not really talked to you before. I'm not some friend or anyone that your even thinking about when you wrote this. And yet I read this journal, felt compelled to respond. Why? Because I follow you. Why? Because what you have and how you are inspired me to do so. Just you being you is enough. Your worthy of love and joy and you have value and worth, even if I can't explain in detail why. After all, I'm not good at any of this. But I can guarantee you, as bleak as your work is, its a bleaker world with out you.

And I'm not telling you you have to try harder. You do enough. You've done enough too. I understand not wanting to roll the boulder anymore but its also okay to take a break from all that, all this, and focus on yourself. And I know thats not a magic bullet or some great advice that I can help you put into practice, but its the best this random stranger has. I hope it helps on some level and even if you get nothing else out of this I hope you get this; you've made random strangers lives better too.

I know we never talked a whole lot, but I do care about you and do want things to get better for you. You're no disappointment, nor waste of time. You've always been friendly towards me and others.

If it gets too hard, please consider the 988 Lifeline. Call or text 988, or visit their site. https://988lifeline.org/ There's also 211 Helpline that might be able to help you find help resources (not just medical). Though they're not trained in crisis management, they do try to help.

You matter, Drakion. Please remember that! Also, I agree with PHenic above, who put it better than I ever could.

You can note me if it helps you, though I'm not on here all the time. I try to reply when possible.

Hugs and sobs

*hugs*

-hugs- not forgotten and not a waste. <3

We've only talked a few times, but I do sometimes think about you. Life is hard, moreso for some than others and especially right now. You aren't alone in feeling like its not worth trying. I find myself thinking about giving up sometimes. But it is always worth continuing, it is always worth trying again. It is always worth picking yourself up, giving yourself some time to heal, and then trying again. There is always a chance that things will improve, but if you give up or don't try, they can't.

Don't give up, and don't be afraid to reach out to others.

Never forgotten you blue.
im here if you need me big guy