when I see photos of furries at meets or cons and with other furries. They were together—laughing, touching, sharing moments. They looked close. Comfortable. Like they belonged.
I wasn’t in the photo.
I wasn’t near it.
I wasn’t invited.
Seeing that made me feel something deep. Not just sadness. Not just being left out. It feels like I'm missing something that matters to me. Like connecting with others , and knowing I’m not part of it.
I didn’t choose to be outside. I just am.
And the more I look at those photos, the more it hurts.
I feel unwanted. I feel like it’s too late. I feel like I’m behind everyone else.
I feel like maybe I’m not meant to be in that kind of space.
I feel invisible.
I feel like I'm missing out.
I wish there was someone there to guide me to one in person
I keep trying to be okay with it. But it still hurts a lot. kierenHusky