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a month ago
🖤🩸🖤 I WANNA PROVE MY LOVE BEFORE I LEAVE
I WANNA MAKE YOU COME AND SCRAPE MY KNEES
WANT YOU TO BITE MY TONGUE UNTIL I BLEED
AND YOU CAN PUT THESE FUCKING WORDS IN MY OBITUARY 🖤🩸🖤
🖤🩸🖤 
🖤🩸🖤 Worn myself out today!
Tidied the kitchen up ready for the next fresh food shop.
Cleaned all the Cutlery, including knives! (I usually avoid sharp knives due to bad impulses.)
Threw the rubbish out despite the neighbours being loud and obnoxious, managed to get out there and get things down the Bin Chute.
Shopping was a fiasco.
Half of it turned up. SO I got on the phone and chased things in circles...got some credit to re-order, so did so - and thankfully it went well!
Turns out my local supermarket was just having a LOT of issues, the lady I talked to was very nice, understanding and we had a little talk which was lovely! :D
She was very kind, I did have the intention of going full turbo complaint but she genuinely found my list of items to re-order fun and healthy haha.
So whoever you are, you made me smile. ❤
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Put the shopping away, sorted my computer out for the night and then played Phasmophobia with Chu!
Really fun night all around.
Bit of a headache and i'm still feeling hyper - so gonna chill out and wind down with some videos or maybe something brainless on streaming channels.
I'm happy, I did what I could before pain and a bit of a brainache set in.
Its crazy. I used to be able to weightlift, train and walk myself to other towns and stuff. With Fibromyalgia and Chronic issues/pain in my left leg/hip - I've lost ALL the strength in my body I had. My problem is, is that I treat my body like I can still lift heavy, push myself, and pay the price. Chu and have been supportive as hell and i'm still learning/testing my limits.
I was told to move slower to get things done at a steady pace, I can't do that. I go fast, part of me believes i've still got my scrawny lean muscle and its hard to unregister those thoughts.
Living in pain is no fun, pain clinic has been deathly silent and really pushing my temper.
I use edibles and my medication to tolerate and survive. Sometimes an edible just to switch the brain off for a little while and attempt sleep where its failed before without it.
Pain sucks, lol.
---
My mental state has been...drifting...but I am trying to fight past the darker days and get back on track with art and pottering around while I can deal with my leg pain.
Its exhausting emotionally, physically and mentally...very draining.
Still waiting on the GIC too. Its becoming a lost hope, but thankfully i've been going to more LGBTQ+ events and bars now n' then so I feel less down.
(Even got called Sir and passed as male naturally. SQUEE!!)
I have a slight, light beard which is growing wild - I don't care, it suits me. <3
Other than that, things are going steady.
Still got my battles behind the scenes, some of you know, some don't.
But been feeling like if I keep little victories coming and going, it'll be alright.
Hope you all are well and keeping safe.
Slowly getting there.
Sending hugs, fluff and good stuff out to all of you.
- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
Tidied the kitchen up ready for the next fresh food shop.
Cleaned all the Cutlery, including knives! (I usually avoid sharp knives due to bad impulses.)
Threw the rubbish out despite the neighbours being loud and obnoxious, managed to get out there and get things down the Bin Chute.
Shopping was a fiasco.
Half of it turned up. SO I got on the phone and chased things in circles...got some credit to re-order, so did so - and thankfully it went well!
Turns out my local supermarket was just having a LOT of issues, the lady I talked to was very nice, understanding and we had a little talk which was lovely! :D
She was very kind, I did have the intention of going full turbo complaint but she genuinely found my list of items to re-order fun and healthy haha.
So whoever you are, you made me smile. ❤
-
Put the shopping away, sorted my computer out for the night and then played Phasmophobia with Chu!
Really fun night all around.
Bit of a headache and i'm still feeling hyper - so gonna chill out and wind down with some videos or maybe something brainless on streaming channels.
I'm happy, I did what I could before pain and a bit of a brainache set in.
Its crazy. I used to be able to weightlift, train and walk myself to other towns and stuff. With Fibromyalgia and Chronic issues/pain in my left leg/hip - I've lost ALL the strength in my body I had. My problem is, is that I treat my body like I can still lift heavy, push myself, and pay the price. Chu and
have been supportive as hell and i'm still learning/testing my limits.I was told to move slower to get things done at a steady pace, I can't do that. I go fast, part of me believes i've still got my scrawny lean muscle and its hard to unregister those thoughts.
Living in pain is no fun, pain clinic has been deathly silent and really pushing my temper.
I use edibles and my medication to tolerate and survive. Sometimes an edible just to switch the brain off for a little while and attempt sleep where its failed before without it.
Pain sucks, lol.
---
My mental state has been...drifting...but I am trying to fight past the darker days and get back on track with art and pottering around while I can deal with my leg pain.
Its exhausting emotionally, physically and mentally...very draining.
Still waiting on the GIC too. Its becoming a lost hope, but thankfully i've been going to more LGBTQ+ events and bars now n' then so I feel less down.
(Even got called Sir and passed as male naturally. SQUEE!!)
I have a slight, light beard which is growing wild - I don't care, it suits me. <3
Other than that, things are going steady.
Still got my battles behind the scenes, some of you know, some don't.
But been feeling like if I keep little victories coming and going, it'll be alright.
Hope you all are well and keeping safe.
Slowly getting there.
Sending hugs, fluff and good stuff out to all of you.
- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
