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It Doesn't Get Easier, Does It? ~
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🖤🩸🖤 I WANNA PROVE MY LOVE BEFORE I LEAVE
I WANNA MAKE YOU COME AND SCRAPE MY KNEES
WANT YOU TO BITE MY TONGUE UNTIL I BLEED
AND YOU CAN PUT THESE FUCKING WORDS IN MY OBITUARY 🖤🩸🖤
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This day, 2006, 19 Years Ago.
I lost my best friend, someone Ioved, argued, Roleplayed with...even agreed to have him come visit in 2007 in what would have been the New Year.
I lost someone special to me.
Someone who was 'Just an online Friend' became so much more. We were both broken souls looking for a friend we could rely on.
In RP we butted heads, Thrasher and Gordare split and made seperate ways after a tough decision.
Gordare formed the Universal Guardians.
Thrasher, I , formed The Last Command.
One the official protector of the lands we were in on Furcadia, me? I was the rebel, I didn't want to conform, but still defend the lands I lived in.
We would meet up for talks, in a special area we knew as only our characters, or fursonas knew it well. It was like a very special part of the Dream on Furcadia where only we knew.
There we made a pact, no matter what happened, we would fight for our freedom and our friendship. Ont he outside, we were brash and harsh with each other. On the inside, we still cared.
It was just the hard-headed part of us.
Behind Gordare was a fantastic person, my best friend and confidante. He died in a car collision, when I found out it was a day or so after my own Motorbike crash? I was more than devastated.
I still swear whatever deities got it wrong, I should have died that day. I now live with permanent pain and a bad leg.
Gordare/Patrick lost his life. To which I would have given anything to trade. He had so much potential and kindness, a true hearted guy who had his whole life...but I would do anything to have him back.
Whichever universe he's in right now, I know he's still here spiritually - he likes to remind me sometimes through dreams and little things that happen in my life.
Sitting here bawling, next year will be 20 years...
How do you cope with the pain of mourning your best friend's death?
It just doesn't get any easier.
I miss him so much.
RIP Patrick/ Gordare.
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- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
I lost my best friend, someone Ioved, argued, Roleplayed with...even agreed to have him come visit in 2007 in what would have been the New Year.
I lost someone special to me.
Someone who was 'Just an online Friend' became so much more. We were both broken souls looking for a friend we could rely on.
In RP we butted heads, Thrasher and Gordare split and made seperate ways after a tough decision.
Gordare formed the Universal Guardians.
Thrasher, I , formed The Last Command.
One the official protector of the lands we were in on Furcadia, me? I was the rebel, I didn't want to conform, but still defend the lands I lived in.
We would meet up for talks, in a special area we knew as only our characters, or fursonas knew it well. It was like a very special part of the Dream on Furcadia where only we knew.
There we made a pact, no matter what happened, we would fight for our freedom and our friendship. Ont he outside, we were brash and harsh with each other. On the inside, we still cared.
It was just the hard-headed part of us.
Behind Gordare was a fantastic person, my best friend and confidante. He died in a car collision, when I found out it was a day or so after my own Motorbike crash? I was more than devastated.
I still swear whatever deities got it wrong, I should have died that day. I now live with permanent pain and a bad leg.
Gordare/Patrick lost his life. To which I would have given anything to trade. He had so much potential and kindness, a true hearted guy who had his whole life...but I would do anything to have him back.
Whichever universe he's in right now, I know he's still here spiritually - he likes to remind me sometimes through dreams and little things that happen in my life.
Sitting here bawling, next year will be 20 years...
How do you cope with the pain of mourning your best friend's death?
It just doesn't get any easier.
I miss him so much.
RIP Patrick/ Gordare.
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- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
No, one only learns to deal with it different ways, let time gild the memories.
I am sorry for your loss, long ago as it may have been. Sending you lots of hugs.
But it will feel like intense with time. Talk with people about your loss, allow yourself to feel everything. It is the only way it gets better.
~ hugs you tightly ~