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4 months ago
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Those who follow me may have seen the (now deleted) journal that consisted of only capital letter A's. The reason for that was due to a mental breakdown as a result of many, many bad things happening one after another.
Firstly and most majorly. My mother is in the hospital, due to having to have her gallbladder removed. She has had to have three total surgeries before finally being completed, and as of writing this, will most likely be in the hospital for another week at minimum.
She has done most of the things around the house, such as caring for our two dogs and two kittens, mainly through feeding them. With her gone, I need to take up that mantle, which I have been able to do, though it's tricky since our oldest dog, Chica, who is a 14 year old functionally blind and dementia-ridden chihuahua has special food which can be difficult to discern from our younger dog's.
She also handled my medication, as being someone with previous and recurring SI, I shouldn't be trusted with the entire bottles of the medication as ODing is a genuine threat. So, I was off my medication for a couple days before my dad was instructed on where and what medication to give me. Being off my meds did not help, as every little thing upset me greatly, from the already great stress of my mom being hospitalized.
Something else bad happened, not directly to me but in the same purview of family matters happened, however I can't go over details as they're very personal. Then adding the typical stresses of dealing with the pets, such as Chica's go-wherever-she-is habit, it all compounded in a very stressful environment.
One final stressor was that I was dutifully making a piece for a good friend of mine for 8/8, Vore day. I was clise to finishing the linework when this happened. Naturally I panicked and believed there would be no way for me to get it done in time, as me being stressed is not a good environment for me to work on artwork. However, as of yesterday, it's nearly complete, needing only shading and possibly a simple background. It'll be done in time.
All that being said, I'll get through this. It's been hard on me mentally, but well, I'm still here. Everything will be okay.
Firstly and most majorly. My mother is in the hospital, due to having to have her gallbladder removed. She has had to have three total surgeries before finally being completed, and as of writing this, will most likely be in the hospital for another week at minimum.
She has done most of the things around the house, such as caring for our two dogs and two kittens, mainly through feeding them. With her gone, I need to take up that mantle, which I have been able to do, though it's tricky since our oldest dog, Chica, who is a 14 year old functionally blind and dementia-ridden chihuahua has special food which can be difficult to discern from our younger dog's.
She also handled my medication, as being someone with previous and recurring SI, I shouldn't be trusted with the entire bottles of the medication as ODing is a genuine threat. So, I was off my medication for a couple days before my dad was instructed on where and what medication to give me. Being off my meds did not help, as every little thing upset me greatly, from the already great stress of my mom being hospitalized.
Something else bad happened, not directly to me but in the same purview of family matters happened, however I can't go over details as they're very personal. Then adding the typical stresses of dealing with the pets, such as Chica's go-wherever-she-is habit, it all compounded in a very stressful environment.
One final stressor was that I was dutifully making a piece for a good friend of mine for 8/8, Vore day. I was clise to finishing the linework when this happened. Naturally I panicked and believed there would be no way for me to get it done in time, as me being stressed is not a good environment for me to work on artwork. However, as of yesterday, it's nearly complete, needing only shading and possibly a simple background. It'll be done in time.
All that being said, I'll get through this. It's been hard on me mentally, but well, I'm still here. Everything will be okay.
