feeling very demoralized
3 months ago
ok i really dont know what the fuck is going on anymore. none of the drawings i put a good-ish amount of effort on seem to do well at all. i dont know if I always upload at an awful time or if my drawing ability is just completely shit now and people dont want to see it. i dont like looking at numbers but its really disheartening seeing myself get like 20% of what I used to get. im really trying but i feel like honestly stopping or just uploading less if i feel like my drawing are getting ignored. like i understand that art usually gets drowned out during days like today, but even on non-occasion days I get basically shit and theres no justification for that, which only makes me think my art has gotten worse
maybe this is just me realizing that on every site, its completely luck based if people see your art and it isnt just a social-media-site-being-used-as-a-gallery issue only. i dont know maybe ive always have self doubts in my art and now theyre being validated almost
i dont want this to be a pity post or whatever. i guess im just venting to the void. people dont read my journals anyway
maybe this is just me realizing that on every site, its completely luck based if people see your art and it isnt just a social-media-site-being-used-as-a-gallery issue only. i dont know maybe ive always have self doubts in my art and now theyre being validated almost
i dont want this to be a pity post or whatever. i guess im just venting to the void. people dont read my journals anyway
FA+

But yeah I get that too. I've noticed my reuploads tend to do better than the original artist posts at times, which just feels, kinda bad for them, ya know? (That's why I always upload my stuff at a later date to maximize exposure)
That said, your later stuff is just as good, if not better than your older art, so the least I can do is prove I do care and enjoy seeing it show up in my notifications.
Artistry suffers the most via this system, because for most it can be very personal, a loving craft, bringing emotions and ideas to life, even if it's just on a screen. It can be devastating to put your work out there to what could be an empty theater.
I do like your work, you have a very pronounced style that I recognize from platform to platform. But, at the same time, it's not easy to go off of things like that, with all this uncertainty floating around.
It's easy to tell someone to stay confident, hard to actually instill those emotions.
So instead what I'll say is:
Your struggle is real, the feelings you are experiencing are real, and though it may hurt, it's a reminder of your position, and your potential for growth, even if it's only seen from those on the outside.
Worth mentioning that for my SFW art side, i used to have an instagram account that did surprisingly well it’s first year or so while i was making crappy art and pencil doodles, but then once i actually got good and was making the stuff i was mostly proud of, all the engagement suddenly died down. So maybe its a social media thing where there’s some weird middle ground of not having the newcomer push, but not the old legend status??? Yeah idk, internet has been going crazy with ai and all this other crap to where it feels dead/dying so i’ve just kinda taken my childhood dreams of internet fame and fortune out back and shot them in trade for a desperate focus on the few people ive met
Sorry to dump massive ramblings but yea