I don't know what happened to me. Recently, I felt as though I have been trying to bleed water out of a stone. But just like doing that, nothing comes out, and I'm at my wits end.

But I know why I'm suffering. I am currently going through a nervous breakdown, brought upon by an overload of stress and an existential crisis. This is why I'm unable to write, and why I can't produce anything right now.

I just... My mind is telling me "What is the point?" and "Why are you dissociating?" and even "What does this have to pertain with life as whole?" It's as if it is dragging me out of my thoughts and into a state of stasis. My mind doesn't want me to create new things or to make new works. Not until I resolve something deep inside me.

I visited my psychiatrist lately, and she said that this is the result of a disturbed inner psyche. I will need to schedule an appointment with my therapist soon, otherwise I will continue to dwell on this.

I'm sorry, buddies, but I will need to take time off. I just... feel a sense of impending doom and overwhelming doubt. I'm not saying I'm a failure, but my mind is obstinate in me not getting back to writing. Just nothing comes to mind.

I hope the rest of you buddies have a better summer than me.
I just need to rest and take it easy. I need to find peace with myself...