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a month ago
Obviously I deleted them. The better question to ask is "why?"
It's a long story but the short version is that right now I'm beyond unstable at the moment, emotionally and mentally, and just need to take a break from being as active online before I say or do something that I regret.
The longer story is that the last three weeks have been about as close as I've ever been to literal hell.
Rewind to the weekend of July 26th/27th. I had to work a good chunk of that weekend. Cool. That happens sometimes. No sweat.
Next work week was stressful but manageable. Little bit less okay but still workable.
Friday, August 1st I departed to go camping in the Canadian Rocky Mountains with my family for my mother's birthday. Not my choice of activity but I can work with it. I would be offline from Friday early morning to some time Monday. Now, the two weeks prior to this weekend I had been slowly transitioning one of my medications from a brand name medication to a generic one as I had to change health insurance providers in May after I found new employment from being laid off in March. I made the transition to the final dosage level Saturday night and had the single worst reaction to a medication I have ever had in terms of altered mental/emotional state. It took until Monday evening for my family and I to figure out it was the medication. We dropped two dosage levels to try to course correct. Mistake. Cue the second worse reaction I've had to a medication on Tuesday evening followed by a hellscape week at work.
Now for this weekend we're coming out of where I have been consistently let down by people repeatedly. I have been left unanswered, unread, or had agreements broken about people's availability in regards to doing things this weekend. Overall I would say I lost roughly 60-70% of my time this weekend for doing stuff to waiting on people.
And I'm now heading into a fourth stressful work week with basically no substantial downtime to release any of the stress that's built up over the last few weeks. I'm strung out and hanging on, mentally, by a very frayed thread.
I know there are a lot of people in way worse situations than me. Please do not read this journal as me asking for sympathy, empathy, or anything like that. I don't want it.
This journal's intention is to be contextual.
So yes. I am taking a break from FurAffinity for an indeterminate length of time, minimum one week but probably longer. I will not be overly active on other socials either. If you really need to get ahold of me for some reason, Discord and Telegram will be your best bet. Handles are on my main profile.
Stay well, all.
It's a long story but the short version is that right now I'm beyond unstable at the moment, emotionally and mentally, and just need to take a break from being as active online before I say or do something that I regret.
The longer story is that the last three weeks have been about as close as I've ever been to literal hell.
Rewind to the weekend of July 26th/27th. I had to work a good chunk of that weekend. Cool. That happens sometimes. No sweat.
Next work week was stressful but manageable. Little bit less okay but still workable.
Friday, August 1st I departed to go camping in the Canadian Rocky Mountains with my family for my mother's birthday. Not my choice of activity but I can work with it. I would be offline from Friday early morning to some time Monday. Now, the two weeks prior to this weekend I had been slowly transitioning one of my medications from a brand name medication to a generic one as I had to change health insurance providers in May after I found new employment from being laid off in March. I made the transition to the final dosage level Saturday night and had the single worst reaction to a medication I have ever had in terms of altered mental/emotional state. It took until Monday evening for my family and I to figure out it was the medication. We dropped two dosage levels to try to course correct. Mistake. Cue the second worse reaction I've had to a medication on Tuesday evening followed by a hellscape week at work.
Now for this weekend we're coming out of where I have been consistently let down by people repeatedly. I have been left unanswered, unread, or had agreements broken about people's availability in regards to doing things this weekend. Overall I would say I lost roughly 60-70% of my time this weekend for doing stuff to waiting on people.
And I'm now heading into a fourth stressful work week with basically no substantial downtime to release any of the stress that's built up over the last few weeks. I'm strung out and hanging on, mentally, by a very frayed thread.
I know there are a lot of people in way worse situations than me. Please do not read this journal as me asking for sympathy, empathy, or anything like that. I don't want it.
This journal's intention is to be contextual.
So yes. I am taking a break from FurAffinity for an indeterminate length of time, minimum one week but probably longer. I will not be overly active on other socials either. If you really need to get ahold of me for some reason, Discord and Telegram will be your best bet. Handles are on my main profile.
Stay well, all.
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