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250 Watchers, and a question
2 months ago
Thank you everyone who has watched me, 250+ of you.
About six years ago, if you had asked me if I was a furry, cold sweat would’ve broken out. My throat would’ve clenched, and I’d have deflected. Even coming out as bisexual was hard-but furry? That was something else. Loathing, cringe, clenching, disgust, fear. Scary stuff. And yet, underneath all of it, there was always a yearning. A need to belong. To dive deeper. To contribute.
When I asked others, I found the story was the same: alt accounts, dual identities, incognito mode, excuses. Shame and longing living side by side.
So lets take a different route: Recently I attended Sydney’s Aurawacon (furry con), and I was floored by the sheer amount of talent. Everywhere I turned, someone had a skill they’d honed to perfection. See a plush? They’d sewn it themselves. A fursuit? Built in their teens. Stickers? Overflowing and brilliant. Every corner revealed people who had poured themselves fully into creating. The more they embraced the cringe and the fear-the more they owned themselves-the more their talent shone. Its simple.
Cringe is the way forward.
When we walked down the street together and someone called them “freaks,” they just shot back, “I get more pussy than you.” And I believed them, haha.
I realized then how much of an idiot I’d been to delay this part of myself. But also, how much I’d gained. I feel motivated in a way I never have before. To learn, to grind, to give my all. It’s like I’m finally expressing myself with the full weight of who I am. The parts of me aren’t fighting anymore-they’re syncing. And because of that, drawing feels easier, faster. Instead of battling the brush, it’s working with me.
So-thank you for 250 watchers. It really means the world being able to see that.
What would you like to see more of? What have you enjoyed the most?
About six years ago, if you had asked me if I was a furry, cold sweat would’ve broken out. My throat would’ve clenched, and I’d have deflected. Even coming out as bisexual was hard-but furry? That was something else. Loathing, cringe, clenching, disgust, fear. Scary stuff. And yet, underneath all of it, there was always a yearning. A need to belong. To dive deeper. To contribute.
When I asked others, I found the story was the same: alt accounts, dual identities, incognito mode, excuses. Shame and longing living side by side.
So lets take a different route: Recently I attended Sydney’s Aurawacon (furry con), and I was floored by the sheer amount of talent. Everywhere I turned, someone had a skill they’d honed to perfection. See a plush? They’d sewn it themselves. A fursuit? Built in their teens. Stickers? Overflowing and brilliant. Every corner revealed people who had poured themselves fully into creating. The more they embraced the cringe and the fear-the more they owned themselves-the more their talent shone. Its simple.
Cringe is the way forward.
When we walked down the street together and someone called them “freaks,” they just shot back, “I get more pussy than you.” And I believed them, haha.
I realized then how much of an idiot I’d been to delay this part of myself. But also, how much I’d gained. I feel motivated in a way I never have before. To learn, to grind, to give my all. It’s like I’m finally expressing myself with the full weight of who I am. The parts of me aren’t fighting anymore-they’re syncing. And because of that, drawing feels easier, faster. Instead of battling the brush, it’s working with me.
So-thank you for 250 watchers. It really means the world being able to see that.
What would you like to see more of? What have you enjoyed the most?
I gave your account a watch because you seemed cool, I found you through some of your work outside the fandom but what you do is neat, you're quite a talented artist and I appreciate your nsfw stuff. I look forward to seeing what you make in the future, particularly art-wise and your game project!
I only got 47 followers so far,lol...
I would like to see more horse arts from u. : ) Maybe even unicorns too?? = )
Yeeah! That be really cool to see in ur beautiful and awesome style too. :D :D
I always enjoy seeing more Dimitri, he has a lot to appreciate ;>
I know you've drawn female horse before, have you ever considered female dog? Never enough cookie in the world
Now responding back to front, I most enjoyed:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61938339/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61996152/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55323990/
Your liberal / loose way of painting is really nice, like the way you used colors.
"The parts of me aren’t fighting anymore-they’re syncing. And because of that, drawing feels easier, faster. Instead of battling the brush, it’s working with me."
That's the best place to be in, hope for you that this continues that way.
Cringe is the way forward.
What should I add to that?
It's, and it's a great way to grow.
Just one last thing, hope that numbers (watcher-counts, etc) are purely of a positive meaning to you.
Other-wise, when they start to drag you down, banish them from your life.
Keep the joy up!
I hope that it continues as well and I'm curious what type of person I'll come to be at the end.
Its interesting how I see the numbers as a validation and its like - what if I was becoming myself and there was no validation for it? That can be demotivating for sure, so I'll keep what you say in mind.
"Its interesting how I see the numbers as a validation and its like - what if I was becoming myself and there was no validation for it? That can be demotivating for sure, so I'll keep what you say in mind. "
Everyone feels validated differently.
I noticed in writing this, and it's not trivial to ask, but validation of what?
I did always try to find validation, and hardly ever succeeded.
But it does beg the question for me now {at my-self}. Validation of skill, or expression? What about an ominous "one-self"?
I just wanted to make the point, that you can find validation in more than one thing,
and that another-one should not drag you down only since it seems "more rational".
Like exchanging silly doodles with friends, having someone take the time to look past the surface of the drawing and give a more nuanced reaction than "That's good".
But it seems like I now ..
I should go and think about this question, validation of what, for myself now again.
Sorry for my ramble. Maybe it's interesting, or a waste to time to read.
In any-case, happy to have had you reply :otter:
I generally have low expectations, so as long as you paint whatever you like, from time to time, that's good!
And for the purposes of the poll, I prefer the spicy, sexy guys. Yes, I'm here for that JIGGLY SAUSAGE AND EGGS 🤤 But everyone has their preferences, so do what you want!
I really like hot characters as well.