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Well. That was interesting.
3 months ago
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Yup.
Here I am.
Over a decade later.
Somehow, by some miracle, I'm drawing again. I have no worldly idea how long this will last, if it indeed does at all.
I'd sure like to keep drawing. Maybe if the meds hold up.
Wellbutrin and Strattera have been a godsend.
Well. We'll see.
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edit:
good gods above and below reading my old journal entries
was
a
m i s t a k e .
... the times when i was unmedicated, i truly had been arrested in my development. things i wrote when i was 24 read like they were written by a 16 year old. I'm probably still stunted now and stuck with a maturity level no higher than a twenty year old. i keep mindful of that, because... it really does hold you back. It's hard to be taken seriously when I act so immature all the time.
I truly can't blame anyone who brushed me off for a foolish waste of time >_>;
I really hadn't comprehended how much I'd hamstrung myself by neglecting proper psychiatric treatment.
So many stupid silly mistakes. So many missed chances and spoiled opportunities. I don't even know if I'd be capable of helping anyone else avoid them.
If anyone does read this, and you happen to have some form of attention deficit... please, please, please do not hesitate on getting medicated. You don't have to suffer like this. You don't have to struggle like this. You can, in fact, be more capable. It is, legitimately, a disability that warrants the affordance of aid. There's crucial parts missing from us that leave us less functional than others and a selective norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor could be the difference between languishing in a helpless loop for a decade or more and actually getting your life off the ground.
the world needs you...
don't be like me.
Here I am.
Over a decade later.
Somehow, by some miracle, I'm drawing again. I have no worldly idea how long this will last, if it indeed does at all.
I'd sure like to keep drawing. Maybe if the meds hold up.
Wellbutrin and Strattera have been a godsend.
Well. We'll see.
---
edit:
good gods above and below reading my old journal entries
was
a
m i s t a k e .
... the times when i was unmedicated, i truly had been arrested in my development. things i wrote when i was 24 read like they were written by a 16 year old. I'm probably still stunted now and stuck with a maturity level no higher than a twenty year old. i keep mindful of that, because... it really does hold you back. It's hard to be taken seriously when I act so immature all the time.
I truly can't blame anyone who brushed me off for a foolish waste of time >_>;
I really hadn't comprehended how much I'd hamstrung myself by neglecting proper psychiatric treatment.
So many stupid silly mistakes. So many missed chances and spoiled opportunities. I don't even know if I'd be capable of helping anyone else avoid them.
If anyone does read this, and you happen to have some form of attention deficit... please, please, please do not hesitate on getting medicated. You don't have to suffer like this. You don't have to struggle like this. You can, in fact, be more capable. It is, legitimately, a disability that warrants the affordance of aid. There's crucial parts missing from us that leave us less functional than others and a selective norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor could be the difference between languishing in a helpless loop for a decade or more and actually getting your life off the ground.
the world needs you...
don't be like me.
