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INFO: solid shit (this is me ofc)
2 months ago
To be honest, I don't know where to start...
Probably with my health again. I was feeling better, if you remember my previous journals. (You can read them.) Now I'm feeling worse again. Almost everything makes me nauseous, and I'm in constant pain. There is some suspicion of cancer, but it's still unknown.
But if that can be dismissed, my mental health is even worse.
I won't hide the fact that I have a lot of bad thoughts about the end and what I can do with such thoughts. I'm really trying, but I'm tired. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist, but only in two weeks, because the doctor is on holiday. I don't know how things will go from here, because the problems don't end there.
Commissions and YCH were my entire income. Now things are much more difficult. I have problems, well... probably everywhere. Including in my life. Some of my debts exceed 1,000$, which complicates my already anxious thoughts.
Of course, I am the only one to blame for this. This is just information for reference, I think... So that I probably don't have to tell everyone everything all over again.
What am I getting at... Oh, yes.
I will start returning money to those whom I can. First and foremost, this applies to those who have been waiting a very long time for some kind of work. It will not be easy, as I said, given my financial problems. It will take time. I will look for other work and perhaps more adopts. I will, of course, complete the work that I am able to do!
What am I asking of you? Just a little more patience. Even if you are very angry with me and tired of waiting. I don't want to go through all this either, but I don't really have a choice.
In any case, I will not act on any of my bad thoughts until I return what I owe. That way, at least my conscience will be clear.
Thank you for reading and forgive me for this mess.
I will endeavour to respond to your messages on all my social media accounts by 1 September
Probably with my health again. I was feeling better, if you remember my previous journals. (You can read them.) Now I'm feeling worse again. Almost everything makes me nauseous, and I'm in constant pain. There is some suspicion of cancer, but it's still unknown.
But if that can be dismissed, my mental health is even worse.
I won't hide the fact that I have a lot of bad thoughts about the end and what I can do with such thoughts. I'm really trying, but I'm tired. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist, but only in two weeks, because the doctor is on holiday. I don't know how things will go from here, because the problems don't end there.
Commissions and YCH were my entire income. Now things are much more difficult. I have problems, well... probably everywhere. Including in my life. Some of my debts exceed 1,000$, which complicates my already anxious thoughts.
Of course, I am the only one to blame for this. This is just information for reference, I think... So that I probably don't have to tell everyone everything all over again.
What am I getting at... Oh, yes.
I will start returning money to those whom I can. First and foremost, this applies to those who have been waiting a very long time for some kind of work. It will not be easy, as I said, given my financial problems. It will take time. I will look for other work and perhaps more adopts. I will, of course, complete the work that I am able to do!
What am I asking of you? Just a little more patience. Even if you are very angry with me and tired of waiting. I don't want to go through all this either, but I don't really have a choice.
In any case, I will not act on any of my bad thoughts until I return what I owe. That way, at least my conscience will be clear.
Thank you for reading and forgive me for this mess.
I will endeavour to respond to your messages on all my social media accounts by 1 September
Tons of love. Hope the psychiatrist can help
Being in a tough spot financially is no fun for anyone, especially when you have health problems.
You come first. Don't harm yourself. I hope the psychiatrist can alleviate some of your concerns.