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On why I'm back, what my problem is, and money.
a week ago
- Hi. I'm Lai. I quit posting for 3 years! I've quit FA a few times actually. Mostly it was because of art theft. For over 12 years, I did my best to support artists, and not once did I ever ask anyone for money. Which leads me to my next point.
- For over 6 years, I've had a horrible job working for my father. But trying to find other work doesn't...Work. So, I'm pretty much trapped and miserable all the time. Only now his company is dying and he's struggling to pay me. Hence, the idea that perhaps if I came back, someone would give me a dollar, at least. (And I think meticulously preserving 12 years of art and bad memories is worth a dollar!) (Also someone did give me dollars! Thank you!)
- On top of that, I feel alone, I feel like I have no friends or support, so...Even though posting art and showing up online led to a lot of negative experiences for me, it did occur to me that I will never make another friend again if I don't at least expose myself enough to run into one. So that's another reason I'm trying to do this again.
- Eventually, I will run out of art to post. I don't even commission people that often anymore, I mean, why would I, if money is running dry and all. Plus I had a bunch of really awful experiences with artists running off with my money. (To the one of you I still commission, you're awesome and I really appreciate you, I'm not saying all artists are bad. I'm flattered that you stuck with me this long. But a lot of people took advantage of me and it really made me give up.)
- I thought about doing twitch streams or something. Just anything that I can do to make friends or get funds, at this point. This isn't the best recording environment, though.
- To clarify, I am not asking for funds so that I can commission art. I am asking for funds so that I can survive. I am taking a risk and exposing my stuff to theft in order to survive. Frankly, it's pretty unlikely that any of this will even cover half of my rent, but any help is better than the none I had, I suppose.
- For over 6 years, I've had a horrible job working for my father. But trying to find other work doesn't...Work. So, I'm pretty much trapped and miserable all the time. Only now his company is dying and he's struggling to pay me. Hence, the idea that perhaps if I came back, someone would give me a dollar, at least. (And I think meticulously preserving 12 years of art and bad memories is worth a dollar!) (Also someone did give me dollars! Thank you!)
- On top of that, I feel alone, I feel like I have no friends or support, so...Even though posting art and showing up online led to a lot of negative experiences for me, it did occur to me that I will never make another friend again if I don't at least expose myself enough to run into one. So that's another reason I'm trying to do this again.
- Eventually, I will run out of art to post. I don't even commission people that often anymore, I mean, why would I, if money is running dry and all. Plus I had a bunch of really awful experiences with artists running off with my money. (To the one of you I still commission, you're awesome and I really appreciate you, I'm not saying all artists are bad. I'm flattered that you stuck with me this long. But a lot of people took advantage of me and it really made me give up.)
- I thought about doing twitch streams or something. Just anything that I can do to make friends or get funds, at this point. This isn't the best recording environment, though.
- To clarify, I am not asking for funds so that I can commission art. I am asking for funds so that I can survive. I am taking a risk and exposing my stuff to theft in order to survive. Frankly, it's pretty unlikely that any of this will even cover half of my rent, but any help is better than the none I had, I suppose.
Everyone missed you a lot. Glad to have you back!