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a week ago
Today, something happened in America (or was it yesterday?) and there is something that connects to an old trauma of me.
I heard from a couple people that the man was awful, horrible, homophobic, transphobic and almost everything that a modern leader should be against with. And of course that is horrible, taking peoples birth rights to be themselves, to feel loved and protected. That is cutting away the rights of people.
HOWEVER, i never, under no circumstance wishes for anyone to be shot, stabbed, drowned or in any way being taken their life.
For those that are new to my account, I will tell the story.
A couple years ago, I was an active part of the furfandom in my country, went to parties, cons, birthdays. I reall felt like I had friends. But I also noticed something else. Some people, basically made it there whole person to be at every party possibel. It was always the same group, and even if i felt welcommed, I also felt distance because I couldn't be everywhere.
After around a year, I also noticed I was invited less, people didn't talk to me anymore and some defriended me on facebook (Which was still a hot platform back then) I didn't knew why, and when i asked, people hardly gave a clear answer. It was like... from one moment to another, I was an outcast.
But the real kicker came at a rave party. For context, this party happened a week after the Belgum terrorist attack.
it was late in the evening, around 11 I think. I had my fursuit head on.
For the people that don't know, when you wear one, it really limits your view. Remember how you made a pair of binoculous with your hands as a kid? it's like that. So my view was pretty limited and since it was a rave party all i saw were the lamps of the bar and the laserlights.
It happened real fast. I stood somewhere and felt a tap on my shoulder. When I turned around, the first thing I saw was the barrel of a gun. Before I could evne reallize that, I could hear the trigger being pulled. And then she just walked away. That was it. Nothing said, not even a hate comment or anything. just that.
But that wasn't just the story. After I reallized what happened, i took my bag, told the organisator what happen and went back to the hotelroom.
When I came home the next day, my facebook pm messages were filled, and they all had the same message: 'Stop causing drama, everyone knew the pistol was fake.'
And that is it. I can't stand it when I hear people casually say: 'oh I'm so happy he got shot.' (Yes that happened) When I hear that, I feel almost personally attacked. It feels like saying: 'oh, it was good he was shot. Because it was a bad men.' So does that also justify that barrel to my face, all those years ago, jsut because someone tough I was a bad person?
Now I might say something that will strike, if you agreed to him being shot, you also agreed to me being shot. Then i rather have to get out of my page. because I will NEVER justify gun violation
I heard from a couple people that the man was awful, horrible, homophobic, transphobic and almost everything that a modern leader should be against with. And of course that is horrible, taking peoples birth rights to be themselves, to feel loved and protected. That is cutting away the rights of people.
HOWEVER, i never, under no circumstance wishes for anyone to be shot, stabbed, drowned or in any way being taken their life.
For those that are new to my account, I will tell the story.
A couple years ago, I was an active part of the furfandom in my country, went to parties, cons, birthdays. I reall felt like I had friends. But I also noticed something else. Some people, basically made it there whole person to be at every party possibel. It was always the same group, and even if i felt welcommed, I also felt distance because I couldn't be everywhere.
After around a year, I also noticed I was invited less, people didn't talk to me anymore and some defriended me on facebook (Which was still a hot platform back then) I didn't knew why, and when i asked, people hardly gave a clear answer. It was like... from one moment to another, I was an outcast.
But the real kicker came at a rave party. For context, this party happened a week after the Belgum terrorist attack.
it was late in the evening, around 11 I think. I had my fursuit head on.
For the people that don't know, when you wear one, it really limits your view. Remember how you made a pair of binoculous with your hands as a kid? it's like that. So my view was pretty limited and since it was a rave party all i saw were the lamps of the bar and the laserlights.
It happened real fast. I stood somewhere and felt a tap on my shoulder. When I turned around, the first thing I saw was the barrel of a gun. Before I could evne reallize that, I could hear the trigger being pulled. And then she just walked away. That was it. Nothing said, not even a hate comment or anything. just that.
But that wasn't just the story. After I reallized what happened, i took my bag, told the organisator what happen and went back to the hotelroom.
When I came home the next day, my facebook pm messages were filled, and they all had the same message: 'Stop causing drama, everyone knew the pistol was fake.'
And that is it. I can't stand it when I hear people casually say: 'oh I'm so happy he got shot.' (Yes that happened) When I hear that, I feel almost personally attacked. It feels like saying: 'oh, it was good he was shot. Because it was a bad men.' So does that also justify that barrel to my face, all those years ago, jsut because someone tough I was a bad person?
Now I might say something that will strike, if you agreed to him being shot, you also agreed to me being shot. Then i rather have to get out of my page. because I will NEVER justify gun violation
It has been over tne years ago but I still feel the effects, like I still have a hard time calling people friends.
Also, I don't see myself as social. Some then say: Huh, but you are.' And then my reacton is always: No, I just talk easy