Yep... it's my birthday... been a while since I used one of these. but today is my birthday. I'll be honest, I've dreaded it. I'm 28 now and not fully sure what I want in life. There is so much I don't know how to do on my own, and I'm afraid to fail. I don't wanna feel like a burden to anyone, but I don't wanna be alone somewhere that no one can help me, or even notice me. I guess I'm used to following someone else's plan, that I know if I plan anything, it will fail. I don't want to fail, at the same time, I don't want to be a bother... I'm a simple guy, I just want to draw and have people like it. I wanna get a new laptop and start doing digital art. I wanna do animations, maybe have a YouTube channel. I want to find someone to love and support me, I want others to be around me. I just don't really want to fail,and end up someplace worse than where I am now... I guess to anyone reading this I ask, how do you do it? I'm sure you probably are living happily, with friends or loved ones, feeling comfortable where you are, you might be doing even better than me. I ask what's your secret that I'm not getting? Is there still hope for someone like me?

Sorry for venting, these are feelings I had bubbling inside me for a while now...