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Lmfao apparently I'm a 'terrible person'
2 months ago
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Hello and welcome to the raptor's lair! Our top story tonight.......[/color] Incoming vent journal, will delete later
Apparently my art post from yesterday, which i did in response to some rough shit I had to go through the evening before, only made things kinda WORSE, to the point I got called a terrible person straight-up to my face, before having the chat wiped n deleted (this took place on Telegran, which btw I DO use, just not AS much, but I might get back into using it
I posted that damn art piece to try to give myself a sense of normalcy and to try n remind myself I'm still loved and have friends after the shit from the other night left me feeling very broken and horrible about myself.
AND because it features a friend who's very dear to me who i haven't done a lot with recently due to my mental issues (a common theme lately that i promise I'm working on)
And apparently posting that art, which by the way is from MONTHS ago, part of my backlog, makes me a terrible person, eh?
I mean, the situation is a bit more complex than just that of course, but I don't wanna get into specifics for the sake of privacy. I think the situation does deserve that much at least.
But I also think maybe this was probably for the best, the situation turning out how it did. After seeing how things have gone since the other night, and not even really being able to explain *my* side of things, especially so. Every story has two sides and mine is NO LESS important than the other guy's, no matter WHAT they may think or want to believe (tho in this case they wouldn't have even tried to believe my side anyway so like, why even try n give my side, then?)
And hell, I'll own up to my mistakes. I made a LOT of em over time that unfortunately led to the situation that started this. And I really wish I hadn't but oh well, can't change the past. And I don't really wanna wallow in the misery, wishing I'd done things differently for a different outcome, all of that. Been through that emotional hell way too many times in the past couple years, I don't wanna do it yet again. It's easier to just accept how things have gone, admit I've done poorly, and move on.
As was said to me the other night, I've made my bed, now I gotta lie in it. Fine by me. I still have friends i know care deeply about me and I care deeply for all of them. I'll focus my energy on them
I still don't think I deserve being called a terrible person over posting art to cheer myself up after a bad situation, tho, do you?
Apparently my art post from yesterday, which i did in response to some rough shit I had to go through the evening before, only made things kinda WORSE, to the point I got called a terrible person straight-up to my face, before having the chat wiped n deleted (this took place on Telegran, which btw I DO use, just not AS much, but I might get back into using it
I posted that damn art piece to try to give myself a sense of normalcy and to try n remind myself I'm still loved and have friends after the shit from the other night left me feeling very broken and horrible about myself.
AND because it features a friend who's very dear to me who i haven't done a lot with recently due to my mental issues (a common theme lately that i promise I'm working on)
And apparently posting that art, which by the way is from MONTHS ago, part of my backlog, makes me a terrible person, eh?
I mean, the situation is a bit more complex than just that of course, but I don't wanna get into specifics for the sake of privacy. I think the situation does deserve that much at least.
But I also think maybe this was probably for the best, the situation turning out how it did. After seeing how things have gone since the other night, and not even really being able to explain *my* side of things, especially so. Every story has two sides and mine is NO LESS important than the other guy's, no matter WHAT they may think or want to believe (tho in this case they wouldn't have even tried to believe my side anyway so like, why even try n give my side, then?)
And hell, I'll own up to my mistakes. I made a LOT of em over time that unfortunately led to the situation that started this. And I really wish I hadn't but oh well, can't change the past. And I don't really wanna wallow in the misery, wishing I'd done things differently for a different outcome, all of that. Been through that emotional hell way too many times in the past couple years, I don't wanna do it yet again. It's easier to just accept how things have gone, admit I've done poorly, and move on.
As was said to me the other night, I've made my bed, now I gotta lie in it. Fine by me. I still have friends i know care deeply about me and I care deeply for all of them. I'll focus my energy on them
I still don't think I deserve being called a terrible person over posting art to cheer myself up after a bad situation, tho, do you?
Apparently because I posted it yesterday it automatically means ive been gettin' stuff with other people here recently, which ain't the case, I've been too frickin' broke to even think about it xD
I can note ya with more of the details if you'd like to know