I don't think anyone reads these but eh. I just need to vent something out even if nothing comes of it.

This year has been extremely shitty so far for me. At the beginning of the year I lose my high paying job of nearly three years with the stay bonus right before I earn it. Go from $15 to $10. 35 constant hours a week to barely $25. Then screwed over again at the new from from over hiring. Summer was so bad where Im at from heat and rain that it was completely wasted on having to wait it out. Even a small few days trip was rained out with the 106 degree days stacked with them.

Then directly after the possibly the worst summer in a long time my Internet provider screws up again and I've yet to have decently stable connections for the last month and a half.

It would've been fine had nothing else happened up to this point but of course it can't just stop. Three weeks ago 3 separate family members are all admitted to the hospital for similar heart related issues. Some worse than the others. Now due to that I end up learning that I could be at risk for heart issues later in life. Thank God hospitals know how to treat patients, if only at least. My grandmother is still sufferimg from an aneurysm in her heart because the doctor continuously delays her surgery. Then all the recent shit happening in the states make it one huge shit sandwich.

I feel shit for even typing this out knowing that so many other people are having worse years than me. Just sometimes you have to vent everything out, even if no one will ever see it. I'm hopeful going into October that things will finally give me a break from this year but it's near impossible to tell.

Sorry for the rant if anyone actually reads through this and thank you for listening. I feel strangely better from this.

~Vol