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Cruel Angel's Thesis
a week ago
How cruel are the people who call me cruel?
I'm supposed to be angry, mad with rage. Should I be?
Currently, an ex-friend has pinned a bunch of lies about me on the front page.
My ex-partner, the one who has me blocked everywhere, hasn't blocked me from her OF page where she exposes herself naked.
I was genuinely indifferent when they told me, "Let her do whatever she wants with her body, I don't care."
But she's blocked me everywhere except that one. So is this some kind of revenge?
In both situations, no matter what I do, I'm left looking like the bad guy.
I should be angry (I should add that my ex-partner was pathologically jealous and even got angry over Yiff drawings; imagine when he was talking to other girls. Ironic, right?).
I should be angry, of course. But let's look at this from another angle. How about something that appears to be a circle, if you rotate it, turn out to be a cylinder?
The fact that these two people have accused me of being cruel, even though they know much of my life (if not all of it), think this will make me angry?
Then I should be angry because I see they've never heard of all the bad things that happened to me in my life for this "revenge" to work.
That would be something to get angry about. If it weren't for the fact that all of this is just repeating the same thing over and over again.
Believe me. With the things that happen to you in life, the things you see happen to other people. This is simply ridiculous and only shows that these people who call me "cruel" don't even look back on their own lives to realize that: What you do is a children's game, and children can sometimes be very cruel because they don't yet understand what other people's PAIN really is.
But they're not children anymore.
I'm supposed to be angry, mad with rage. Should I be?
Currently, an ex-friend has pinned a bunch of lies about me on the front page.
My ex-partner, the one who has me blocked everywhere, hasn't blocked me from her OF page where she exposes herself naked.
I was genuinely indifferent when they told me, "Let her do whatever she wants with her body, I don't care."
But she's blocked me everywhere except that one. So is this some kind of revenge?
In both situations, no matter what I do, I'm left looking like the bad guy.
I should be angry (I should add that my ex-partner was pathologically jealous and even got angry over Yiff drawings; imagine when he was talking to other girls. Ironic, right?).
I should be angry, of course. But let's look at this from another angle. How about something that appears to be a circle, if you rotate it, turn out to be a cylinder?
The fact that these two people have accused me of being cruel, even though they know much of my life (if not all of it), think this will make me angry?
Then I should be angry because I see they've never heard of all the bad things that happened to me in my life for this "revenge" to work.
That would be something to get angry about. If it weren't for the fact that all of this is just repeating the same thing over and over again.
Believe me. With the things that happen to you in life, the things you see happen to other people. This is simply ridiculous and only shows that these people who call me "cruel" don't even look back on their own lives to realize that: What you do is a children's game, and children can sometimes be very cruel because they don't yet understand what other people's PAIN really is.
But they're not children anymore.
But I read all of your journals anyway specifically because I think you're so complex and fascinating. Of course that's obvious in your artwork, but it comes through on every level. In both the pleasant and...less-than-pleasant topics, I stand by my statement that you are downright amazing, dear. <3
One shoots, then the other shoots too, then the other responds by shooting. And in the end, it's like the Montagues and the Capulets. They hate each other but don't remember why.
Thank you very much for the compliment and appreciation. I hope it helps you find your answers, not mine.