I hate the position I'm in.
I enjoy drawing general nsfw and vore. That's why I do it. I enjoy interacting with others who are into what I'm into. I enjoy the positive feedback I get when I upload something I put a lot of work into.
But I absolutely hate the way I'm treated by people outside of these spaces for what I do inside of them. I like being able to have friendships with people younger than me (in my age range, of course) without some dipshit thinking it's funny to show them the stuff I draw, or them going places they know they shouldn't go (I can't fault them that much, really- we've all been curious) and finding stuff I've kept specifically out of their reach for their own sake.
I'd understand if it was a situation where people found that I've posted something disturbing, or "problematic" for lack of a better term, and feeling a moral obligation to share it to warn others or whatever, but it's never that. It's always because it's a "funny" fetish, or just that it's funny I draw porn at all. I want to have sexual freedom while also having the ability to be separate from that stuff. Because I am primarily not a "porn artist" (not that there's anything wrong with being one, it seems like fun and makes money). I'm just a guy who likes to draw porn sometimes and likes getting validation from it. But people always find a way to fuck it up and think weird fetishes being "funny" cancels out the negative effects of exposing minors to it.
Keep kids out of adult spaces and all, but keep adult content away from where kids end up. Or something.

Honestly, I've been super irritable for the last few days over slightly related but much more serious stuff. I'm sorry if this journal feels upsetting, disjointed or confusing, or unnecessarily personal considering the setting, but I felt like I needed to get it off my chest regardless.