Status update
2 months ago
General
First of all, I have to say thank you everyone who keeps supporting me, share my art in different communities and just to everyone who's following me and like my art. I appreciate you guys a lot!
Unfortunatelly I haven't been active lately and I wanted to explain why!
You may already know I have a depression disorder from my previous journal updates. This is still the case but I've gone through a long therapy and depression itself isn't such a problem anymore even though it still persists.
But recently I've also been experiencing the strongest art block burnout in my whole life. From what I tried to figure out this is due to 2 main reasons: hand pain (2 hours into drawing and I'm suffering) and not liking my own style/skill.
Right now I'm trying my best to adress these issues and I'd say I have some progress here! But it's still far from solving. Therapy and good perception of yourself is a pretty long and exhausting process.
Also, I wasn't taking any commissions and YCHs recently as well. I have a big queue of commissions I have to finish and feeling the strong guilt about it just doesn't let me take any new entries in list.
Some fund savings allowed me to live a whole year without much income, but of course I'm running out of it pretty soon. Pretty bad timing as I have many other health related issues that needs funding to be healed and fixed.
Good thing I at least worked my way out of the art block burnout and started to work again. It's not much, but it's at least something, so I think I'll be fine.
I'll upload some Halloween themed YCHs soon and will do my best to work both on existing commissions and YCHs and some new ones as well. If you wait for a finished art piece from me - I'm very sorry that I have to make you feel frustrated. Thank you for your patience. I'll do my best to finish it as soon as I can and I'll try to make you feel that it was worth all the waiting! All I need is just a little bit more time.
And thank you for reading this.
Unfortunatelly I haven't been active lately and I wanted to explain why!
You may already know I have a depression disorder from my previous journal updates. This is still the case but I've gone through a long therapy and depression itself isn't such a problem anymore even though it still persists.
But recently I've also been experiencing the strongest art block burnout in my whole life. From what I tried to figure out this is due to 2 main reasons: hand pain (2 hours into drawing and I'm suffering) and not liking my own style/skill.
Right now I'm trying my best to adress these issues and I'd say I have some progress here! But it's still far from solving. Therapy and good perception of yourself is a pretty long and exhausting process.
Also, I wasn't taking any commissions and YCHs recently as well. I have a big queue of commissions I have to finish and feeling the strong guilt about it just doesn't let me take any new entries in list.
Some fund savings allowed me to live a whole year without much income, but of course I'm running out of it pretty soon. Pretty bad timing as I have many other health related issues that needs funding to be healed and fixed.
Good thing I at least worked my way out of the art block burnout and started to work again. It's not much, but it's at least something, so I think I'll be fine.
I'll upload some Halloween themed YCHs soon and will do my best to work both on existing commissions and YCHs and some new ones as well. If you wait for a finished art piece from me - I'm very sorry that I have to make you feel frustrated. Thank you for your patience. I'll do my best to finish it as soon as I can and I'll try to make you feel that it was worth all the waiting! All I need is just a little bit more time.
And thank you for reading this.
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I strongly disagree with this. Feeling this way is just feeling this way, no human is coded to feel certain way about certain things, this is treatable, that's what CBT and antidepressants are there for
Other than that, thank you for your kind words and may peace be with you. I'm glad there are so many people enjoying my work. I'll do my best to one time win this battle against my own brain
A style is an evolving thing, I hope you find the voice that speaks to you.