Sometimes I thought of things that make me super anxious in doing things
like what if I did this instead of doing this thing

Like, I don't want to feel guilty of something that's out of my control
sometimes, I also wonder what if I started out as a safe for work artist?
or what If i did not talk that one friend who I cut off from my life years ago..?

So many regrets... I'm anxious to do things now got unlucky with meeting the wrong people
trusted the wrong people... and worst of all made the wrong decisions.

I hope to someday over come this feeling of dread and find peace of mind that I am looking for...
Hope for the best!