So, I have been having some thoughts. Well, that's an understatement, I have lots of them all the time. However, the important one right now pertains to my artwork.

I make artwork. The question is, honestly, should I continue to?

I'm often upset by my artwork in many ways. Whether it be not liking how it looks during the process of making it, how it looks compared to the artwork of others, or how little traction it gets.

Me and being upset don't go together well. I am autistic, and highly emotional. I feel high highs and low lows. Extremes. When I get upset about my artwork, it can cause me immense mental strain. I have a couple people I could speak to it about, but one has expressly told me not to discuss depressing topics and gives me advice that while I'm sure is perfectly relevant and helpful, is not such to me when I'm in such states. The other I honestly don't say much with, other than that they like seeing my art.

I'm a bit tired of the cycle. I've been told to take a break when I asked a friend about this subject, that taking breaks are perfectly fine, but every time I do, I seem to regress in quality. I also owe people artwork. Promised pieces that need to get done eventually, that I've put off for too long.

So... where does that leave me? I can either continue to torture myself by keeping on, or legitimately think about just throwing in the towel.

I feel like this message won't reach anyone, as much as I want it to. I've always been a background element.