Warning! Personal information about coming to terms about be Trans. If you don't want to know about it stop reading.

So I just posted a commission I got of Hino undergoing a gender transformation and transforming into Starr actually had a lot of meaning behind it. Not only is that quite literally the first NSFW piece I have ever commissioned but it also signifies the personal changes I have been going through.

First... Yeah.. there has never been a nsfw picture of Hino before... That is mostly because I never really was comfortable with Hino being male. I always envisioned him as more of an andromorph/cuntboy (yeah i know a lot of people dislike that term) but i was always worried what people would think. Yeah I know that may seem stupid but I went a large portion of my life where, even after I came out as gay i was seen as full "Man". I wasn't the stereotypical gay boy. So... Fast-forward a bit.

At MFF 2024 I had that moment when I saw a fursuit head that was for sale and part of me went... That's me! Yeah, the character was female but It felt more me than my previous fursuits ever had. I tried it on and it fit really well so I got it. I wrestled with the fact that it was a female character for a few weeks but I realized something through it... My body dysmorphia that I have had since i was a child was actually more gender dysmorphia than anything. I have plenty of memories as a kid wishing I was female that I had blocked out. I daydreamed constantly about being anything but what I was. I'm pretty sure it is where my interest in transformation originated. I never fully considered I might be trans before all this because my Interest was never in having breasts. It focused more on below the waist. So, in my mind... if I didn't want to have breasts I must not want to be female therefor I cant be trans... Yeah younger me was an idiot and also gender identity was still very much an evolving thing.

So since MFF I have really come to terms with Yes, I am Trans. I am nonbinary/gender fluid leaning towards female. I started seeing a therapist and, through a much longer process than it ever should have been, started HRT on Oct 9th. All in all, I am feeling much more comfortable with myself and happy that I am moving towards the person I want to be and not what I think I am expected to be.

No I will not get mad at you if you still use Hino or He/Him but I do ask to please try referring to me as Starr and using She/Her pronouns.