Answering a comment/question...
a month ago
General
I recently received this in a comment on one of my stream announcement posts. I really like the questions, but I still wanted to delete the post, so I'll just keep this as a journal.
Commenter name left anonymous because idk if they want to be bothered.
Here's the comment:
"i just wanna ask, how did you discover you liked the whole tf thing? and why upside down for the most part? genuinely no hate, im just actually curious! no need to answer either :)"
I guess I don't need to answer. Anyway, here's my answer:
Dunno when I specifically discovered that I liked the transformation thing. I mostly came at it from a confused lens of watching old horror movies at a young age. There were a lot of movies with gross practical effects or grotesque imagery during the 80s and 90s (Tales from the Crypt movies, The Fly, The Witches, The Blob, American Werewolf in London, various Nightmare on Elm Streets)
I made a couple responses to a meme format thing on BlueSky around the same question too. It goes so hard I did it twice!
(Vaguely kid-friendly)
https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fulls.....ckj6v7q6u@jpeg
(Intensely not kid-friendly)
https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fulls.....2me6khhoe@jpeg
I chased after a lot of that old content, which lead me to discover websites dedicated to transformations in film and cartoons, which then had some artists that also drew both fan-art and also even MORE transformation type things.
Anyways, I think something cracked in my brain that ruined my young self and now I like transformation things :P
As for UDTF... idk... I made that one up, and I just like to keep drawing weird things. :3
Commenter name left anonymous because idk if they want to be bothered.
Here's the comment:
"i just wanna ask, how did you discover you liked the whole tf thing? and why upside down for the most part? genuinely no hate, im just actually curious! no need to answer either :)"
I guess I don't need to answer. Anyway, here's my answer:
Dunno when I specifically discovered that I liked the transformation thing. I mostly came at it from a confused lens of watching old horror movies at a young age. There were a lot of movies with gross practical effects or grotesque imagery during the 80s and 90s (Tales from the Crypt movies, The Fly, The Witches, The Blob, American Werewolf in London, various Nightmare on Elm Streets)
I made a couple responses to a meme format thing on BlueSky around the same question too. It goes so hard I did it twice!
(Vaguely kid-friendly)
https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fulls.....ckj6v7q6u@jpeg
(Intensely not kid-friendly)
https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_fulls.....2me6khhoe@jpeg
I chased after a lot of that old content, which lead me to discover websites dedicated to transformations in film and cartoons, which then had some artists that also drew both fan-art and also even MORE transformation type things.
Anyways, I think something cracked in my brain that ruined my young self and now I like transformation things :P
As for UDTF... idk... I made that one up, and I just like to keep drawing weird things. :3
FA+

I think for me at least, the desire for that stuff in the first place is just imagining yourself as something you're not, and how that must feel!
And going from the tip of the iceberg with more normal mainstream TF's to the bottom of the iceberg with the really weird, lewd stuff is just a matter of finding new interests, being open to the idea of even more weird stuff (even if it's gross sometimes), and (for me at least) having the more normal stuff lose appeal.
Sometimes all it'll take is seeing something new and odd to really give you a spark in your mind to explore it further and expand upon it!
Just wanna say I really enjoy your UDTF content! :3
Sliding down the TF iceberg continuously is a fun ride! You never know what you'll find!
Do you you enjoy TF from a narrative or fixation perspective, or is TF a fetish for you? (Not that you can't do both.) I really find it fascinating that there are loads of people where TF is more than just kink for them.
If I'm drawing it once, then it's probably for the newly discovered weird idea or fetish.
If I draw the same pose or form more than once, retrying it ad nauseum, then it's probably a fixation.
Then, finally by some miracle, if I'm happy with what I've drawn, or start to paint a dialogue explaining a backstory to it, then I think the narrative builds naturally from there. I like narratives in TF, but I think it's difficult to maintain after the first image or sequence.
I think I can apply the same logic for when I'm hunting down some TF art, some content for inspiration, or I happen to see something randomly interesting :P
But I dig what you're doing with it with your gallery!
What got you into animations and kinky transformations?
By the time Covid hit I had enough time to rediscover traditional animation again and the fandom as it had a lot of potential for sourcing ideas and growth. I was impatient about waiting for some artists to put out interesting animations or sequences so I started making my own, I adopted a bun as a playboy moniker to represent the adult nature of my work but it evolved from a mascot to a sona and the rest is history.
And yeah, a lot of my art attempts started from impatience, too...
And now my impatience stems from my slow art attempts. X3
I’ve learned to adopt a more natural pace even though i try to emulate the workflow and pace of disney animators. The issue i often find is that characters and settings i work with tend to be more complex and the more lines there are the more work it becomes on an exponential scale. But this isnt so much a criticism of characters as a whole so much as it is a competing interest with my desire to have higher detail married with fluid motion - that just inherently takes more time.
I tend to made post-mortem reports for myself as notes following each project, what worked, what didnt, etc. i often try to experiment with a new technique or process with each project too. Getting outside of my comfort zone with drawing is, well, uncomfortable but only because im often unfamiliar with what i do and it often serves to broaden my talents to all kinds of things since im very keen to animate to virtually all kinds of topics the fandom is into (within FA’s definition of acceptable material ofc).
Its been fun despite the challenges, its also why im scaling things down to more manageable scopes i can work with. I still make animations (but for now) up to 15 seconds, and ill be emphasizing more 8/12 fps runtimes over 12/24. if I gain traction and income is steady id like to hire on various artists to help with some processes to free me up time to focus on the animation bits that require the most attention. I’ll also be planning more background art design forays and complex camera shots like paralaxes maybe even more elaborate cast shadow and special effects work. Drawing cels does take time though so itll come when there time to include it. For now im looking at a 1-3 month turn around time for short productions, but again that really depends on what is involved.
My process seems to be more about finding time for the process. That's the hardest part.
Keeping track of a sudden idea and then holding onto it for a while until I can sit down and scribble it out.
I definitely do a mix of iterating on my own, and also experimenting with something interesting that comes along my feed.
I also try to keep an eye outside the fandom too, so that I don't get too stagnant in an echo chamber. That leads me to watch a lot of old, sometimes bad movies.
I also take a lot of risky, "random" attempts and just scribble something out. Usually that just leads to something that is not for me and I also don't like how it looks. But those practice tries are probably the most valuable thing because it could lead to something I'd never seen before. It's also just good for practice.
But for the most part, finding and making time for the process has been the hardest part.