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Apologies for Delays, plus Personal Ramble
a week ago
Hey, everyone.
Just wanting to check in and give another update. It’s been a little bit, so, figure you’re due.
Here’s the basics first. I’ve been very up and down with productivity for the last couple of weeks (obviously, if you’ve been watching the Trello). I’ve apologized for this before, and I won’t sour that by doing the same thing again. You know I’m sorry, and you know I’m working as quickly as I can on your commissions, Kink-Tober, and other things of that nature.
But these are, to some extent, excuses. I am clearly failing on a number of levels and not measuring up to the past speed and focus that I’ve had for the services I’ve offered. I want to be better, but at this point, I’m not sure how.
I know that my work has been declining in speed, reliability, and regularity for a while. It took a definite dive in 2023 when my mom passed, but even after COVID, it was on the downturn after having to rev up and do as much as I did then.
I want to get it back to where it used to be, but then I think of how much of a workaholic I was then, how much that consumed my life, how that was all I was doing, and I wonder if I could even come close to that without going into a depression. I was pretty lucky that I didn’t go into that to begin with, looking back on it.
I do plan on getting some therapy – hopefully – at the end of this year with some help, but who knows how much that’ll shift things. Probably at least a little bit; I’ve been living with a certain level of existential dread for a while now and I’ve been shaky whenever death stuff comes up in media and other things, and that’s gotta be doing something to fuck with my ability to be creative and reliable.
Honestly, I guess this is more of a ramble about how I am at the moment than any real updates. I wish I could offer some timetable of when things are going to be done, when you’ll get what you’re owed, when you will be able to have your product, but every time I’ve started to settle in, I get whammied down again and the schedule goes off and I feel shitty about it. So, I’m going to keep powering through, doing what I can, and I’ll get it to you with as best update on timing as I can.
I said I’ve already apologized, but I have to say it again. I’m sorry for failing on this as often as I have. I want to be better, and I’ll seek ways to get better.
Thank you for your patience. It is endlessly appreciated.
Just wanting to check in and give another update. It’s been a little bit, so, figure you’re due.
Here’s the basics first. I’ve been very up and down with productivity for the last couple of weeks (obviously, if you’ve been watching the Trello). I’ve apologized for this before, and I won’t sour that by doing the same thing again. You know I’m sorry, and you know I’m working as quickly as I can on your commissions, Kink-Tober, and other things of that nature.
But these are, to some extent, excuses. I am clearly failing on a number of levels and not measuring up to the past speed and focus that I’ve had for the services I’ve offered. I want to be better, but at this point, I’m not sure how.
I know that my work has been declining in speed, reliability, and regularity for a while. It took a definite dive in 2023 when my mom passed, but even after COVID, it was on the downturn after having to rev up and do as much as I did then.
I want to get it back to where it used to be, but then I think of how much of a workaholic I was then, how much that consumed my life, how that was all I was doing, and I wonder if I could even come close to that without going into a depression. I was pretty lucky that I didn’t go into that to begin with, looking back on it.
I do plan on getting some therapy – hopefully – at the end of this year with some help, but who knows how much that’ll shift things. Probably at least a little bit; I’ve been living with a certain level of existential dread for a while now and I’ve been shaky whenever death stuff comes up in media and other things, and that’s gotta be doing something to fuck with my ability to be creative and reliable.
Honestly, I guess this is more of a ramble about how I am at the moment than any real updates. I wish I could offer some timetable of when things are going to be done, when you’ll get what you’re owed, when you will be able to have your product, but every time I’ve started to settle in, I get whammied down again and the schedule goes off and I feel shitty about it. So, I’m going to keep powering through, doing what I can, and I’ll get it to you with as best update on timing as I can.
I said I’ve already apologized, but I have to say it again. I’m sorry for failing on this as often as I have. I want to be better, and I’ll seek ways to get better.
Thank you for your patience. It is endlessly appreciated.
Hopefully things are able to work themselves out in time. But until then, focus on yourself, and what you need to do to be happy and healthy. I believe in you.
Big hugs
Thanks again, though.
Wishing you all the best, [dragon writer extraordinaire!
That, and I really can't afford a break-freak, heh.