I AM SO VERY SCARED.
6 days ago
I hope you still remember me?
I just wanted to share what's on my mind—that I'm terribly afraid. I'm afraid that everyone will forget about me.
I was doing better some time ago. I even managed to finish a commission two months ago and thought the illness had retreated, but everything has come back.
I'm not drawing again.
I've locked myself at home again and don't go outside.
I've stopped keeping in touch with everyone, and I can't even remember the last time I saw my friends or family...
I've closed myself off and now I'm just a shadow, a hollow shell of the person I used to be.
My therapist has changed my medications again, and once more, I'm just hoping that I'll start to feel better.
But I'm so very scared. I'm afraid that by the time I come back, there will be no one to return to, and everyone will have forgotten me...
I just wanted to share what's on my mind—that I'm terribly afraid. I'm afraid that everyone will forget about me.
I was doing better some time ago. I even managed to finish a commission two months ago and thought the illness had retreated, but everything has come back.
I'm not drawing again.
I've locked myself at home again and don't go outside.
I've stopped keeping in touch with everyone, and I can't even remember the last time I saw my friends or family...
I've closed myself off and now I'm just a shadow, a hollow shell of the person I used to be.
My therapist has changed my medications again, and once more, I'm just hoping that I'll start to feel better.
But I'm so very scared. I'm afraid that by the time I come back, there will be no one to return to, and everyone will have forgotten me...
FA+

Your fears are heightened. Ones that I, a stranger, can relate to. I may not understand precisely what it is you want to read in this moment, but I see you. I will remember this moment.
It is okay to be afraid. A connection through a series of wires is no less a connection to another.
I am pleased to be your digital witness, today.
What is it that you desire?
And I'm reading your message right now ^w^
People know you're here ♥
There's no doubt in my mind that many of your friends and acquaintances will be happy to see that you're doing ok and are still here when you've recovered enough to return.
In the meantime I wish you the best and hope the new treatment goes well. While I'm also another internet stranger I'm still happy to be a soundboard if you'd like, and I also look forward to seeing you back whenever you feel the time is right!
The root of this current deep depression is the loss of my father almost a year ago. It's a grief that has reshaped my entire world, and some days it's a battle just to exist. Knowing that there are people like you, who extend such kindness and understanding, makes the battle feel a little less lonely.
Your offer to be a soundboard is a gift I will hold close. Thank you for seeing me, and for the light of hope you've offered. It means more than I can say. 🖤