i hope everyone who abandoneed me is happy with their friends they got for free nad happiness they got for free and comfort they got for free while im still writhing in fucking agony trying to find even the smallest semblance of hope in a situation that wasnt even remotely my fault the only thing i ever did wrong was just be born in an era where my kind of person is at the absolute bottom of the food chain and going extinct fast. id ont think you can even like comprehend how fucked up this all has to be for this to happenn. look at your screen. look at it. this is some obscure furry fetish art site im saying this to. this is genuinely one of the best options i have to express myself because most other places are so god damn violently anti independant that i have better odds of finding anything here than i would on like twitter

"its gonna be okay" my ass "ohh it may not be guaranteed to get better but thats what makes it worthwhile" my fucking ass you will never know what its like to realise that people want you erased before youre even old enough to drink and that playing it safe and avoiding naughty content hwen you were 13 was genuinely a horrible idea because you shouldve done everything you could to savor and experience the experimental era of the internet before it was completely and utterly scraped from existance and youre left with nothing but aching regret for the rest of your life spending years upon years upon years just sitting there and trying to find someone its been 5 years and literally nothign has changed but my own intellect which is fucking terrible because being more aware of yourself is a fucking curse you just are able to comprehend your own pain way worse but its not like you can undo it or want to undo it because its what makes you you