Hey guys, not really sure how to put this, but I'm not doing too well mentally, and I'm getting really, REALLY upset at my artwork. I just don't know what it is that I'm doing, but my art style kinda just sucks in my eyes. I know many of you would argue that my work is good. which could be true, but personally, at the current moment, I hate how it looks, all of it.
Drawing for nearly 8-9 years, and I feel as though I have nothing to show for my hard work at all. It's defeating seeing that everyone can sketch faster and shade better than me, and I'm sitting here having a mental breakdown knowing the longer I take, the less it will be worth the wait...

You all have been with me for a long while, and you all deserve better quality from me, so I'm going to spend all the time I can muster to study and practice.

I'm going to be focusing on coms too for a while, just to get them out of the way, since I've taken far too long
while also practicing: better lineart, better colors, better backgrounds, better anatomy, better shading, and better speeds.

But mostly my speed, because speed has been the one thing that's holding me back the most, taking an unforgivable amount of time to draw just a sketch and taking even longer to line it all, OCD is kicking my ass hard. My goal is to be able to turn out 2-3 completed sketches within 2 hours.

Hopefully, this doesn't last long, i'm so sorry in advance