My dear friends~....
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I apologise for those who haven't seen me or wondered what has happened. I said to myself, given how rubbishy I was feeling due to my insides playing up, that I would take a week to rest, recover and maybe try update my schedule and art for things. Wanted to try be more organised and expand on things for twitch itself such as proper "Be right back" or "Starting soon" screenshots so people had more to look at. Perhaps look into different kinds of chat boxes to just pep up the stream.
And besides that, get going with art ideas for both me and people I want to do for as Art is always a passion, love drawing cartoony things for people and don't always get to enough for myself. But have been trying.

That said, the last too weeks, I had NO ENERGY, felt unmotivated and just plain ol' tired. Which, for someone with both Crohn's and chronic fatigue, is a given but I'll never be able to grasp that on some days, I just can't help the way my body acts. I always strive to to keep, and be as able as everyone else out there, despite the hard times we face.

However despite the rest I got, last week was very poor for me, both mentally as well as physically. I normally get medical drugs to help with my condition but on my recent appointment, I fell very sickly and was super worried something was happening. It was all anxiety, trying to make it seem that I was actually far worse than I was (Checked with doctor, said nothing to be found) and ended up in a full blown panic attack. If you've ever had one, you can imagine how rough and scared you'd feel after an episode as bad a mine. Fearing the worst, always seeing the tiny details that then feel huge when in reality they're not a big deal at all. But all the same, its not pleasant or fair on anyone who's just trying to do their best.

So, after that, I was really out for the count, and it took time to get over, and now I do feel better than I certainly was. Not as anxious or dwelling so much on "what could be wrong with me" and trying to keep distracted and moving forward. I'm still not 100% but I am a damn sight better than previously, and I'm confident next week will be a more productive and filled with better vibes than before.

So, as far as doing streams and art, plan to catch up and hopefully get some more streams going this coming week. I want to play through more Pokemon Legends ZA, didn't feel right to touch without showing off in a way so, I left the story for streams and did some things for myself. Also planned on playing a chill Zelda title to round up the holidays and hopefully get around to more Bloodborne when ready and able (And not as stressed with too much going on, holidays coming and all)

For those that took the time to read all of this, I thank you. I haven't been able to update as I said I would, but under the circumstances I hope people understood why I took priority on myself first before coming back to write this. You all deserve nothing but the best, and I wish you a warm and cozy weekend, and let's hope next week is a better one for us all~ 💚⭐️

Thanks for Listening~...

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