Hi everyone 💛
Today in therapy we talked about something that has been controlling my life for years — my inner self-critic.
That voice that never shuts up.
The one that tells me I’m not enough, not fast enough, not talented enough… the one that convinces me I’m failing even when I’m trying my hardest.

And the truth is: this voice has been ruining my ability to work.
Not because I don’t care but because I care too much, to the point where I freeze, panic, and can’t move forward.
That’s why deadlines slip. That’s why I disappear sometimes.
Not out of laziness, not out of disrespect but because my brain attacks me harder than anyone else ever could.

I know some of you have been waiting far longer than you should.
And from the bottom of my heart: I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for the delays, for the silence, for the stress it may have caused.
You deserve better, and I want to be better not just as an artist, but as a human being.

This winter, I’m choosing to break this cycle.
I want to rebuild myself piece by piece: my work habits, my confidence, my relationship with deadlines, my ability to breathe without feeling guilt every second I’m not drawing.

I’m teaching myself to work without fear.
To create without being crushed by expectations.
To show up without drowning in shame.

Starting this spring, there will be no more 6+ month waiting times.
I’m reshaping everything — my schedule, my boundaries, my mindset — so I can finally deliver work in a healthy, steady rhythm.

But to get there… I need time.
And I need a little support and patience from you, the people who believe in me even when I forget how to believe in myself.

Thank you, truly.
For staying, for waiting, for understanding, for not giving up on me.
You have no idea how much your kindness carries me through my darkest days.
I’m healing — slowly, painfully, honestly.
And I promise, I’m becoming someone stronger. Someone you’ll be proud to support. 💛