I thought I was done for this time. Seriously, I spent the last week without sleeping at all. When I did manage to fall asleep, I had nightmares. Vivid ones too. I died in them, or at least in most of the nightmares. It's amazing how much your mind can play tricks on you.

Anyway, through some kind of miracle, I managed to get enough for rent. I already paid for it, and surprise surprise, I have a roof over my head! Again! And like I said before, I believe December is gonna be a smoother month for me. After the rest of this stupid year, I deserve one. I think. Here's hoping I don't lose my mind by the time Christmas arrives.

So, uh... thanks to everyone that helped me. I do feel terrible about reaching out, I dunno. Something about my anxiety getting the better of me, and making me think that I'm exploring others, even if the reason why I'm reaching out is "hey so I would like to not sleep in concrete". It's something I gotta work on, I guess?

For the time being, I'm fine. Well, my bank account right now only has around the minimum for spending on necessities, since the brunt of my cash was for rent, but my mother is getting paid next week, so that should alleviate things a little.

Still, I'll keep my ko-fi open, and if anyone wants to send some cash to help with those necessities ( at https://ko-fi.com/navar ), I would appreciate it. Of course, this is only if you can. I'll be fine if not, it'd just help. Don't feel pressured to do it or anything.

In any case, uh... this is what I wanted to say, I guess? Thanking everyone. Really, I cannot stress enough how much of a shitshow this country is. One day, I'll move out, go to Canada and live with my boyfriend. Until then, I'll do my best to work, survive, and study.

Thanks.