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Life went full circle. Life is good
2 weeks ago
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Bit of a life update.
Ten years ago i dreamed of this really. What i have right now. Living together with my fiancee in a house with a child.
I live with him now. He finally got paid this week for the job he does. We have a dual income and im not bearing the burden so much no more and can slow down on work now or make more decisions. I can finnally relax more. And we kinda sorta do have a child now? Ace our Ball python. And we want more so badly. We also recently have a new family member too. She was born last month and i think its the closest of a human child i can deal with right now. Shes a handfull to my cousin and my best friend (brother) right now and i legit dont know if motherhood with a crying baby is something for me...
I been thinking ALOT latley and alot of you know i cant have kids of my own due being born without a uteris. I had ALOT of therapy the past months because legit the fact i couldnt have kids made me suicidal. But now in a way im already a mom. I just cant explain it but in the past 6 month my brain made such a huge switch. For over a decade i was struggling with this problem and now....it just vanished somehow. I sometimes still have moments of longing but then i think of how much work a child is. And i got my fiancee and Ace to take care of. And i think its enough for me right now. I love the scilence and freedom alot i got now.
I also gotten 2K euros for a gofund me for a uteris transplant and i dont know what to do with it now. Maybe i give it to my cousin for her baby for studies or get ourselves a new ballpython. Because legit Ace is making me so fucking happy right now. I love him so much it hurts. And i can tell he loves us in his own way because hes such a funny annimal. And i would love to get more.
Be a snake mom. Instead of being a mom to a human child that i have no idea how to raise.
I have cool aunt status too and i will spoil my baby cousin so much the coming years when we can. No doubt. Hell my cousin said offhandly im gonna be a godmom? Soooo.......
Im just alot happier nowadays. Alot more relaxed. Alot of stuff i been thinking about. If id be a mom of a human kid then i have to give up my art career too and not sure i can do that. I came so far and i want to go even further. I got alot of people who love me in this community and i dont think i can give any of that up.
And legit i dont know what to do with the gofund me money. Its not my money eighter.....i feel the backers should make that desision somewhat i think? I dont know. I dont want to seem like im a scammer.....
Anyway i think im done rambling. Im just super relaxed and happy nowadays. Not on survival mode no more. Life is boring in the best way you can imagine. No drama, no bullshit. Just chill as fuck with my men in the house. My fiancee and Ace.
Also i should share a photo here of Ace haha!!
https://x.com/halo_lune/status/1984752356530274407 littarly my child now haha!!
Ten years ago i dreamed of this really. What i have right now. Living together with my fiancee in a house with a child.
I live with him now. He finally got paid this week for the job he does. We have a dual income and im not bearing the burden so much no more and can slow down on work now or make more decisions. I can finnally relax more. And we kinda sorta do have a child now? Ace our Ball python. And we want more so badly. We also recently have a new family member too. She was born last month and i think its the closest of a human child i can deal with right now. Shes a handfull to my cousin and my best friend (brother) right now and i legit dont know if motherhood with a crying baby is something for me...
I been thinking ALOT latley and alot of you know i cant have kids of my own due being born without a uteris. I had ALOT of therapy the past months because legit the fact i couldnt have kids made me suicidal. But now in a way im already a mom. I just cant explain it but in the past 6 month my brain made such a huge switch. For over a decade i was struggling with this problem and now....it just vanished somehow. I sometimes still have moments of longing but then i think of how much work a child is. And i got my fiancee and Ace to take care of. And i think its enough for me right now. I love the scilence and freedom alot i got now.
I also gotten 2K euros for a gofund me for a uteris transplant and i dont know what to do with it now. Maybe i give it to my cousin for her baby for studies or get ourselves a new ballpython. Because legit Ace is making me so fucking happy right now. I love him so much it hurts. And i can tell he loves us in his own way because hes such a funny annimal. And i would love to get more.
Be a snake mom. Instead of being a mom to a human child that i have no idea how to raise.
I have cool aunt status too and i will spoil my baby cousin so much the coming years when we can. No doubt. Hell my cousin said offhandly im gonna be a godmom? Soooo.......
Im just alot happier nowadays. Alot more relaxed. Alot of stuff i been thinking about. If id be a mom of a human kid then i have to give up my art career too and not sure i can do that. I came so far and i want to go even further. I got alot of people who love me in this community and i dont think i can give any of that up.
And legit i dont know what to do with the gofund me money. Its not my money eighter.....i feel the backers should make that desision somewhat i think? I dont know. I dont want to seem like im a scammer.....
Anyway i think im done rambling. Im just super relaxed and happy nowadays. Not on survival mode no more. Life is boring in the best way you can imagine. No drama, no bullshit. Just chill as fuck with my men in the house. My fiancee and Ace.
Also i should share a photo here of Ace haha!!
https://x.com/halo_lune/status/1984752356530274407 littarly my child now haha!!
As for the money, perhaps hold a vote for the backers, if that's an option? If the funds they offered aren't going to the cause they intended to support, that could turn sour in a lot of ways. The safest course of action would be to return it, or at least give the donors some say in where it goes.
It's always great to hear good news, especially in times like these. Thank you for sharing, and I hope it continues to get even better. <3
When we decide officially to not do it then ill make a post on the gofund me to ask. In a way its still going into a new life eighter way. Eighter my baby cousin or another legless puppy. And yeah there is adoption for a child wich im more gonna steer towards to when we decide it. I got about a decade to decide still. Uteris transplant is never gonna hapen because of my age. Its difficult accepting it.
And yeah life is going very well. I felt it was more a ramble of thoughts i put down here haha!! Im somewhat able to relax. Ofcourse it has its ups and downs so now and then but right now i never been happier ever in my life. Proud and alot of happy tears latley
Childhood rearing is trying, I had to raise my half sisters. It has ensured, I would never want for my own offspring. The amount of sacrifices I had to make of free time or any personal wants/desires.
Thankfully they turned out okay. (I only raised them for ten years) They struggle due to their adult life choices but, they're good people. An keep trying.
Unless you're a millionaire. I would say kiss any and all free time goodbye. This is why there's so many younger adults who've dropped all commo with their parents for being negligent
No clubbing/Cons/travel without considering so many factors. And it's a list.
A snake in captivity, requires a bit of upkeep (Not as much as a toddler but, still a lot) so you've a sweet heart to "test the waters of patience" with. ie. Meeting their physical and mental needs and ensuring they're
raised with a modecom of affection (Some reptiles just aren't fans of being touched)
I'm curious about the gofundme funds, considering the volume of grifters in this world. (I'm not calling you one, I'm making mention of them) Will you be making a voter poll, to see about
donating it to a specific cause? So, donators don't feel slighted?
And good news is such a rarity this day in age. Thank you for sharing it. And I'm thankful it happened. So much ill and evil in this world. It's nice to hear something good and calm.
I hope that you will be able to achieve everything you hope to get in life. And I wish you the absolute very best.~🩶✨
Glad you're feeling on top of the world!