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This past Friday my brother passed away in the early morning hours. It was one of those I was expecting it and yet as often is the case with these things still shocking. He had been in the hospital for several weeks now recovering from a double lung transplant. Things would go from bad, to good, to worse, to 'normal' but in the end he succumbed to all the complications involved. I am actually glad he's now at peace as I am sure he was not happy being hooked up to machines and relying on drugs/medicine to keep him alive only to just lie in bed. That's not really life and I am pretty certain he wouldn't want to go on like that. I am processing all this as best I can. The sad fact is the same thing happened to my mom back in 2000 and she died right before Christmas so this is erriely similar.
I am still working on Patreon stuff in fact had a psuedo private stream yesterday and may have broken down a few times but it was nice to get my mind out of some darker thoughts and dwell on his passing. I am not stopping drawing but I don't think I'll be advertising commission work for a bit, sorry but I really can't put my best foot forward on that front at the moment. Patreon is going to be my primary focus as people can get rewards there and the Patreons I have, have communicated their support.
Thank you all for understanding, I promise as soon as I can I'll try to get back to things.
I am still working on Patreon stuff in fact had a psuedo private stream yesterday and may have broken down a few times but it was nice to get my mind out of some darker thoughts and dwell on his passing. I am not stopping drawing but I don't think I'll be advertising commission work for a bit, sorry but I really can't put my best foot forward on that front at the moment. Patreon is going to be my primary focus as people can get rewards there and the Patreons I have, have communicated their support.
Thank you all for understanding, I promise as soon as I can I'll try to get back to things.
Last night's stream was a pleasure to stop in for, and being there with you, Wolfpaws, Westhoff and Duroc honestly made my day. Not every stream I attend does that for me, but coming to see you is more like a pub night in a way, a friend-gathering. When they're meant that way, they have a feel like that, you know?
Again, you be as good to yourself as you need to- and I trust that the coffee maker was replaced!
-2Paw.
I am certainly trying to keep myself going, though last night was a little rough it did get better. Yes the coffee maker, much to the relief of the metro St Louis area was obtained and works pretty nicely. *hugs back*
'Cos I know a friend feels the same way.
Sometimes the easiest way to look at a stream that's a gathering of a small family of friends, is that we all are there to be supportive, to be part of something bigger than what we are individually, like any family is when it's healthy and the group is a collective gatherum of caring people who care about each other.
No-one will force me to show up if I can't make it, and I definitely want to come and will when I'm up to a visit. That's as it should be. I want to be supportive with a kind word from afar, an intent that merits positive purpose, even if I may not say the words in person each and every time. I definitely prefer to, if it's to my druthers and desires.
Coming to see you and knowing I am welcome, makes me feel a little more human in a unique way, shared and borne sharing in gestalt. It is family to me, a family of friends, and within that group I don't feel nearly so adrift as I recently have in my journeys.
-2Paw.