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3 months ago
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dew on blades of grass...
just finished episodes one & two of the walking dead video game and goddamn , even though i've played this more times than i can remember , it's still great ! i think it really deserves a remaster / remake since playing on backwards compatible Xbox Series X does come with some visual and character glitches , but definitely not enough to ruin it .
realizing that there could be more to me than i knew is both surprising and frightening at the same time. first it was furry stuff , which yeah i knew for like the longest time , but now having strange feelings about my gender identity and how i present to myself and the world ? it's rough out here.
me , my partner , and my friend went to a local furry event that was happening at an arcade I used to frequent back in the day in the next town over from where i live . with this being my second furry meet , i really wanted to have an outfit that was killer. going through my closet , i found my old "punk" denim jacket with attachable sleeves since it's really cold this time of year and i found my old my chemical romance hat with two decora style hair clips on either side . threw on a halley labs Framedrag long sleeve shirt that I've had since i got into them and was perfect for this meet , black cargo pants and my golf multicolor chucks with socks to match . after accessorising myself to the fullest i could , i walk up to the mirror to see , and ...
whoa.
i look good.
but as i kept looking , something about my fit had me feeling different about myself. like I wasn't just a handsome man (which i know i am). i was more than that. i looked and i didn't feel locked in to just one specific role / indentity , like it didn't really matter what i was wearing or who it was specifically made for. like i can be anyone .
being able to experiment with clothing regardless of who supposed to wear it in my own time and my partner saying that i look great in what i decide to wear (ty for doing that and being supportive of me ily) is a comfort that i'm not really used to . I've had this feeling before at other queer events earlier this year trying to discover what i like, so after seeing myself with so many colors and accessories that represent who i am and what i stand for , it was great to feel comfortable in my own body for that moment . i felt just like who I was supposed to be , myself.
i could be bugging and maybe i just really liked my outfit since most of the stuff i wear is kinda basic , but experimenting is great anyway and has me thinking about what else i could look good in / other styles I can achieve . I don't know what exactly this means for me identity wise but i guess I'll let y'all know later. for now , dresses seem kinda nice and I'd like to know how I'd look in them :)
realizing that there could be more to me than i knew is both surprising and frightening at the same time. first it was furry stuff , which yeah i knew for like the longest time , but now having strange feelings about my gender identity and how i present to myself and the world ? it's rough out here.
me , my partner , and my friend went to a local furry event that was happening at an arcade I used to frequent back in the day in the next town over from where i live . with this being my second furry meet , i really wanted to have an outfit that was killer. going through my closet , i found my old "punk" denim jacket with attachable sleeves since it's really cold this time of year and i found my old my chemical romance hat with two decora style hair clips on either side . threw on a halley labs Framedrag long sleeve shirt that I've had since i got into them and was perfect for this meet , black cargo pants and my golf multicolor chucks with socks to match . after accessorising myself to the fullest i could , i walk up to the mirror to see , and ...
whoa.
i look good.
but as i kept looking , something about my fit had me feeling different about myself. like I wasn't just a handsome man (which i know i am). i was more than that. i looked and i didn't feel locked in to just one specific role / indentity , like it didn't really matter what i was wearing or who it was specifically made for. like i can be anyone .
being able to experiment with clothing regardless of who supposed to wear it in my own time and my partner saying that i look great in what i decide to wear (ty for doing that and being supportive of me ily) is a comfort that i'm not really used to . I've had this feeling before at other queer events earlier this year trying to discover what i like, so after seeing myself with so many colors and accessories that represent who i am and what i stand for , it was great to feel comfortable in my own body for that moment . i felt just like who I was supposed to be , myself.
i could be bugging and maybe i just really liked my outfit since most of the stuff i wear is kinda basic , but experimenting is great anyway and has me thinking about what else i could look good in / other styles I can achieve . I don't know what exactly this means for me identity wise but i guess I'll let y'all know later. for now , dresses seem kinda nice and I'd like to know how I'd look in them :)
