I'm retiring
3 months ago
General
Thank you to those who have known and supported me for years, since I started this in 2020.
I don't usually talk to anyone about what's on my mind, but since I lost my PayPal account, I've felt like a total failure because I couldn't turn a profit and I'm not methodical enough to be able to do things long-term on my own.
I tried to do some animation projects (a lot more than I made public), but they all died because when I spent time on them, I didn't earn money from commissions.
And now that I can't do either, I'm feeling like shit, to be honest.
The last straw was that I haven't been able to collect the money from any of the last three commissions I did due to the websites don't operate in my country or because they require a long verification process.
(Fuck Boosty and Hypolink)
Also, I always saw this as the job I always wanted, and I devoted more time to it than I should have. Many times, I caused my own burnout.
It's horrible to have to draw but your head prevents you from even picking up a pencil, and yet you force yourself to do it anyway.
This doesn't mean I'll never pick up a pencil again to draw my favorite waifu's big lactating boobs, but it feels awful that despite dedicating so much time to it, not knowing how to turn things around (and worse, not having the energy to try) is frustrating as hell.
So, if my art was fuel for a wank, I consider my work done.
So, since this year blopkid (i.e., me) is closing down operations, I'm going to be uploading all the material I didn't publish.
Private commissions, incomplete art, WIPs of finished commissions, etc.
I'm going into Kamikaze mode, guys.
So that's it...
Take care of your testicles out there.
I don't usually talk to anyone about what's on my mind, but since I lost my PayPal account, I've felt like a total failure because I couldn't turn a profit and I'm not methodical enough to be able to do things long-term on my own.
I tried to do some animation projects (a lot more than I made public), but they all died because when I spent time on them, I didn't earn money from commissions.
And now that I can't do either, I'm feeling like shit, to be honest.
The last straw was that I haven't been able to collect the money from any of the last three commissions I did due to the websites don't operate in my country or because they require a long verification process.
(Fuck Boosty and Hypolink)
Also, I always saw this as the job I always wanted, and I devoted more time to it than I should have. Many times, I caused my own burnout.
It's horrible to have to draw but your head prevents you from even picking up a pencil, and yet you force yourself to do it anyway.
This doesn't mean I'll never pick up a pencil again to draw my favorite waifu's big lactating boobs, but it feels awful that despite dedicating so much time to it, not knowing how to turn things around (and worse, not having the energy to try) is frustrating as hell.
So, if my art was fuel for a wank, I consider my work done.
So, since this year blopkid (i.e., me) is closing down operations, I'm going to be uploading all the material I didn't publish.
Private commissions, incomplete art, WIPs of finished commissions, etc.
I'm going into Kamikaze mode, guys.
So that's it...
Take care of your testicles out there.
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I do hope whatever endeavors you go through next are more successful for you and best of luck in it. Do stop on by even if its as an observer and not an artist.
Thank you so much for your words and advice.
With you there boosty and hipo are such piles of shit, as bad as paypal i swear all payment services are such scum.