I'm starting to realize that I'm hardly ever social. And I don't mean on like social media or anything, I just mean in general. I know tons of people here and elsewhere, but I don't think I've chatted with any of them in...maybe years for many. I've always been a very introverted person and I've always struggled with engaging with people. And lately, with all the crap going on in the world, it's hitting me hard.

I miss being an active part of the community, even if it was only a small part. I miss my friends. I miss just chatting with people on the regular, playing games, sharing art.

My brain likes to worry that maybe I've just been quiet and absent too long, and people forgot I even exist. I know it isn't true, but I still feel isolated, and I want to change that.

I want to start engaging with people more and not just be this random person who only occassionally appears for short periods of time. I wanna reconnect and be with my friends again.

Anyway, sorry for all the depressin stuff, just had to get it out. I hope all ya'll are doin good and stayin safe.