» 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚!


update : 18 / 03 / 26

i write this journal from my hometown - i stay with my parents for a week (16th - 22nd). i visited them last time before new year's eve. (they live 450 km / 279 miles away from us. ( at least 7-8 hours of different kinds of public transport.)) so i usually plan longer visits.💕
my brother's birthday is on 20th of march, and i wanted to visit his grave, giving him the gifts i planned to, also a bouquet of flowers. white lily, white hydrangea and white lisianthus.
also i plan to visit my grandma, her grave is in the city. i bought her an angel shaped bell 2 years ago and i haven't manage to give her yet. she collected angel figurines, i bet she will like it.
this month is kinda about remembrance to me. lil' bittersweet in the beginning of spring. but i don't mind. they are dear to me, even in this dimension or in another.

i try to be more comfortable with my crusty ipad, and also i'm discovering clip studio paint. so far, i love it. we will see. it will be a very-very silly comparison, but to me, it's like SAI2 advanced with all those cool features AND nice brush quality.
meanwhile working on the commissions and premades, i help my mom out with house chores. i do stuff that requires more time, so mom won't be bothered by it while she doesn't have time for longer chores in house anyway. yesterday i scrubbed the shower, today will clean and declutter the terrace. at least i can adore her flowers - she has pretty flowers! maybe i give them some love too.

my antidepressant was decreased 'cause it pushed me into a manic episode, i feel the withdrawal of that dosage tho. i feel so... meh. just existing on the average or below. hoping stimulants will bring salvation lol. i feel so tired and lowkey i'm rocketing back into depression :")

at least spring is here and the weather is so beautiful. hoping the temperature will be decent for a longer period of time. wanna go pokémonGO with d3stroia . also feeling my spark is back with drawing. is it cool isn't it? <3 also started dancing again at home, i've just learnt a small choreography in 1.5 hours, such a big achievement without guilt!! didn't think i ever manage to do that
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Planned updates in March 2026:
➛ traditional Sunday - working with traditional media only 🐣
➛ starting Personal Weekends - not working on tdl, as i planned 💥🐣
➛ reworking my discord server 💥🐣 95% ;
➛ t.o.s. / carrd.co update 🐣, 80%
➛ drawing some chibies for my carrd.co 🐣80%
➛ different screens for stream (BRBs, offline, starting soon) 🐣 45%
➛ unique emojis for the discord server 💥🐣 40%
➛ keeping up with the streaming schedule ⏸️ | 40%
➛ ko-fi set up (again) ⏸️🐣20%
➛ picarto decorating and rewriting some stuff ⏸️🐣 20%
➛ new profile picture & cover art sfw & nsfw account 🐣 15% | redo cause' not satisfied
➛ mascot character for the sfw and nsfw furaffinity of mine excluding my fursonas 🐣10%
➛ some personal art
➛ drawing some bases
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🐣 - started, in progress
✅ - finished
🆕 - new plans added
💥 - priority
⏸️ - not priority
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also, if you have ideas for bases you want to see drop a comment below !
see you soon! ❣️

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🎶 music of the month : pinkpantheress - stateside ft. zara larsson
📓 quote of the month : later will add.]
📔 reading atm : looking for alaska - john green
🎯 focusing on : not drowning in feelings lol
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