Ever since one night... I'm now back to being myself, constantly thinking how this world sucks and why am I here. What is the purpose of living... Not everyone lives the dream they want. I'm a girl who stares out the window for hours even if I'm not thinking. I'm sick of people saying that they know what it's like when they don't even know... I just want to throw my life away like I did once before for 2 years. "I do it for the drugs, I do just to feel alive!" - Smile Empty Soul. I wish I was heartless again and didn't care about anyone in the world. There was no drama at all =]