Well, I've come to admit to myself that I think I may have become a little unstable over the past few weeks. Monday's events haven't really affected me, but I've noticed that over the past 2-3 weeks, I've been a little more depressed than normal, and I haven't been able to find a reason. I mean, things are great, I've got plenty of friends and have been having a great time.

Right now, my only excuses are that the sheer lack of privacy I have had over the past semester, and I feel that I have become too dependent upon others. I feel I really don't have a place to call home. My "home" is somewhere here in Blacksburg, but I don't have a place to call "mine". Even when my roommate is gone for a weekend, the other half of the room is filled with stuff that isn't mine, creating a different atmosphere. I have a few places to escape to, but even then, the same feeling follows.

Normally I wouldn't have much of a problem with this, since I'll be going back to my parents place in about 3 weeks to stay for the summer...but this has seriously started to affect my school. It's completely wiped out my motivation for almost everything, I can't sleep very well at night and if I get to sleep, I sleep through my alarms causing me to miss classes. I've missed deadlines for a few assignments, one of which might heavily affect my grade.

The reason I am posting this here is because I want my close friends to know, but I don't want them to worry. I'm trying to find a way to deal with my predicament, which may cause me to disappear from the community for a few days or so. Just know I'm not trying to avoid you because of something, it's just better for me since I'm fairly introverted and have no place to just lock myself away.