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18 years ago
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Good news and bad news, this is what I get for letting friends and pleasure come before needs and responsibility.
I've been very lucky lately, but my finite luck just ran out and I got myself fired. The deed that did it happened yesterday when, after staying up till 2 am talking to people, I woke up at 8:20 AM (twenty minutes late for work), called in (and didn't leave a message with my boss), and get there only to have my recent Narcoleptic afflictions catch up with me and knock me out in my chair for minutes at a time while I struggled futilely through entirely ineffectual coffee.
Steve heard guff about it, and I bit the dust right there as far as management was concerned. So today, minutes before five, he took me aside and handed me a pink slip. And I haven't broken down crying yet. I haven't reached for the sleeping pills yet. I haven't... gone to run out into traffic yet. I thought this would be the end of my life. I was positive, even last night, that "If I fuck up this job, I may as well stop living right then". Yet, as it just figures, I didn't stop living and I don't have any intention to.
As far as the event itself, of sitting down in Steve's office and hearing "I'm going to have to let you go", it was actually almost amicable. I mean, the most disturbing part was that ten minutes where all I could do was stare blankly in utter silence. The first thing I said, staring at the slips where I held them three inches from my face, was: "... the first thing I'd like to have made clear to me is that you're not doing this because you hate me." "Absolutely right." --and this set the tone for the rest. He said:
1) I ought to see a doctor to get this verified if Narcolepsy really is the problem,
2) He wants to write letters of recommendation for me and help me find a new job,
3) He recommended a place for me to check out
4) many apologies, etc.
5) I put in the good word for my pal justin (our local taxifox)... whom, when I can finally get in touch with him, I will force to finish up his resume so he can submit it there
Overall, VFP, Inc. is, was, and will most likely be for anyone else, a good place to work, provided you're not as irresponsible as I am. I hope these lessons stay with me if I manage to survive this... but chances are, I might disappear soon, and not be available for a very, very long time.
if that's the case, I'm going to miss you, whichever one of you is reading this.
I've been very lucky lately, but my finite luck just ran out and I got myself fired. The deed that did it happened yesterday when, after staying up till 2 am talking to people, I woke up at 8:20 AM (twenty minutes late for work), called in (and didn't leave a message with my boss), and get there only to have my recent Narcoleptic afflictions catch up with me and knock me out in my chair for minutes at a time while I struggled futilely through entirely ineffectual coffee.
Steve heard guff about it, and I bit the dust right there as far as management was concerned. So today, minutes before five, he took me aside and handed me a pink slip. And I haven't broken down crying yet. I haven't reached for the sleeping pills yet. I haven't... gone to run out into traffic yet. I thought this would be the end of my life. I was positive, even last night, that "If I fuck up this job, I may as well stop living right then". Yet, as it just figures, I didn't stop living and I don't have any intention to.
As far as the event itself, of sitting down in Steve's office and hearing "I'm going to have to let you go", it was actually almost amicable. I mean, the most disturbing part was that ten minutes where all I could do was stare blankly in utter silence. The first thing I said, staring at the slips where I held them three inches from my face, was: "... the first thing I'd like to have made clear to me is that you're not doing this because you hate me." "Absolutely right." --and this set the tone for the rest. He said:
1) I ought to see a doctor to get this verified if Narcolepsy really is the problem,
2) He wants to write letters of recommendation for me and help me find a new job,
3) He recommended a place for me to check out
4) many apologies, etc.
5) I put in the good word for my pal justin (our local taxifox)... whom, when I can finally get in touch with him, I will force to finish up his resume so he can submit it there
Overall, VFP, Inc. is, was, and will most likely be for anyone else, a good place to work, provided you're not as irresponsible as I am. I hope these lessons stay with me if I manage to survive this... but chances are, I might disappear soon, and not be available for a very, very long time.
if that's the case, I'm going to miss you, whichever one of you is reading this.
Why disappear? By the sounds of things it was an unfortunate occurrence and nothing more. Have a shot at finding a new job and move on.
I could go on a long-winded rant about responsability, but it doesn't look like I need to.
If you manage to survive this? I don't understand....
I have my reasons too die...but i will just go thru the trash too see if their will be a good ending
but whatever the case
we all live once.
if not..then i dont know untile i experiance it myself
but yeah..even thru hard times...we all should live life to its fullest
even the poorest of the poor could live a true happy life.
their is always ways to live a "great life"....nothing is impossible,or holding you back.
just relaxe and think positive..find solutions and continue forward
dont give up man.
It feels that way, looks that way, it can even be charted and graphed into a foregone conclusion, but that job, that marriage, that school or that wife are temporary elements in a life you'll live for as long as your body holds out. When it comes right down to it, you won't really have enough time. It'll give up long before your done. There's no sense in letting an event, any event, rob you of whatever change might just so happen to rest on the otherside of tomorrow.
At any rate, please do get the possible narcolepsy looked into and here's hoping we see you again soon.
Still ... he said he'd give a good referral, you have job experience now, and you can put "medical condition" as the reason for leaving your last job. There are certainly worse ways to be fired.
As for life--go on, and keep living it.
Go back out and look for another job.
If the recommendation from this boss is in any way, shape, or form tied to and contingent upon your getting seen for the possibility of narcolepsy, then go find a doctor PRONTO.
Any which way, it sounds like your direct boss is fairly sympathetic towards you, wanting to write the letters AND help you find a new job--take a breath, clear your head, and see the blessing for what it is, even if it is wrapped in a slightly tragic circumstance.
And furthermore---Den-Mother Jackal speaking here---I don't ever again want to hear this grief about "if I survive this"...you have survived a lot already, and some things more emotionally and mentally damaging than THIS. Hell, think of what I've told you I've gone through in my life, and please come to the realization that if I'm still walkin' and breathin' that you will be too. Don't make me go canine on you.
*hugz*
Now get a Decent Night's Rest For Once(!!!), get up tomorrow, take a nice long hot shower, touch up the resume, and get out there and Look. You've gone this far in life, there's absolutely no sense in stopping now.