well, the evening seemed to be fine at first...but i guess not everything is as it seems sometimes. after talking with one contact for a while, they started to talk about a bottled up sadistic and cruel tendencies, and how they must have broken free of and are now starting to affect them. that worries me but it also sounds weird...why all of a sudden now?

then something more serious happened, i guess something in the air and how life has been treating them has started to affect them, because they talked to me after the first event of the day, and said that they wanted to stop corrosponding, i'm understanding of why, but i really want to know what triggered it in the first place.

i guess maybe it was a bit bigger of a blow because i should be sleeping as i write this and yet i cant seem to manage it. i guess things arnt looking up for me anymore, i dont even know what to do or how to change to make things better.