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A Life ended too soon
15 years ago
This isn't going to be easy for me....ok here I go.
I've only told this to select few people on here... my wonderful brother was murdered recently. I'm not much into bleeding my heart on the virtual world cause you usually end up with a couple of nice messages and a lot of shitty comments not caring whatsoever. That's what I expect, you don't see the guy that soul gets crushed by your comment. Out of site, out of mind. Also, I didn't want to burden people with my grief, so I've kept a positive attitude, scratch that, a goofy attitude to deal with it. But it's not a ruse, I have a very friendly attitude, love to goof around and am sensitive to others feelings, more than my own sometimes. I just wanted to talk to people about the thing I've been secretly in love with. Cartoon animals, funny anthro comics and interested in people putting on a wolf suit lol! Damn it's hard to write this done. I've been fooling myself to thinking that I could replace my brother's abscense with a friendly furry buddy, that's just cruel and unfair to do to my new friends. I don't know if deciding to be a furry during such a stressful time is clynically a good thing but it felt like I was going to explode if I didn't. Couple that with my semester going into full swing, and not wanting my family to find out about my 'choice' because they are already in enough shock from my brother's murder and I feel like I'm falling in a black hole. I decided to be myself because the brother who was taken from me always lived his life without bars. Never afraid to talk to anyone from a different walk of life, a different religion or no religion, loving everyone. Oh jeez, my chest is starting to hurt. I don't know why my brother had to be taken like the way he was. He didn't have one hateful bone in his body. I loved him so much. He looked out for me and proteced me when I was little but I wasn't even there when he was killed. I know he's with God now. I just can't fathom a person who would take a life. I don't want to know. To my friends on here, please don't treat me any different. I don't mind a kind, reassuring word but don't treat me like a puffball, I still love joking around and talking about games and cartoons. I just needed to share my loss. I'll post up the poem by Henry Longfellow, 'A Psalm of Life' later today cause it perfectly describes my dear brother. Thank you to my friends for being kind to a new, shy wolf and I hope this doesn't change your outlook on me. Hugs to everyone and live your life everyday without regret and always have love and peace as your guiding principles.
I've only told this to select few people on here... my wonderful brother was murdered recently. I'm not much into bleeding my heart on the virtual world cause you usually end up with a couple of nice messages and a lot of shitty comments not caring whatsoever. That's what I expect, you don't see the guy that soul gets crushed by your comment. Out of site, out of mind. Also, I didn't want to burden people with my grief, so I've kept a positive attitude, scratch that, a goofy attitude to deal with it. But it's not a ruse, I have a very friendly attitude, love to goof around and am sensitive to others feelings, more than my own sometimes. I just wanted to talk to people about the thing I've been secretly in love with. Cartoon animals, funny anthro comics and interested in people putting on a wolf suit lol! Damn it's hard to write this done. I've been fooling myself to thinking that I could replace my brother's abscense with a friendly furry buddy, that's just cruel and unfair to do to my new friends. I don't know if deciding to be a furry during such a stressful time is clynically a good thing but it felt like I was going to explode if I didn't. Couple that with my semester going into full swing, and not wanting my family to find out about my 'choice' because they are already in enough shock from my brother's murder and I feel like I'm falling in a black hole. I decided to be myself because the brother who was taken from me always lived his life without bars. Never afraid to talk to anyone from a different walk of life, a different religion or no religion, loving everyone. Oh jeez, my chest is starting to hurt. I don't know why my brother had to be taken like the way he was. He didn't have one hateful bone in his body. I loved him so much. He looked out for me and proteced me when I was little but I wasn't even there when he was killed. I know he's with God now. I just can't fathom a person who would take a life. I don't want to know. To my friends on here, please don't treat me any different. I don't mind a kind, reassuring word but don't treat me like a puffball, I still love joking around and talking about games and cartoons. I just needed to share my loss. I'll post up the poem by Henry Longfellow, 'A Psalm of Life' later today cause it perfectly describes my dear brother. Thank you to my friends for being kind to a new, shy wolf and I hope this doesn't change your outlook on me. Hugs to everyone and live your life everyday without regret and always have love and peace as your guiding principles.
Its good to hear that you're keeping a calm mind on all of this, but its okay to let some feelings out like anger and sadness.
Man, that just sucks >.<
Life sucks but you gotta keep your humor =P
Thats true, glad you're dealing with all of this with a bit of humor.
Wow, your post really got to me. I don't often shed tears for people I don't personally know.
Also, I understand how you feel about telling your parents about your "choice." I wish I could tell mine; I'm just not in a postion to do so yet. I'd be more than happy to discuss this with you in a PM.
*hugs tightly*
I'll throw ya a pm when my eyes stop acting like sprinkers! All my plants are getting a good drink XD
I fight my way out of this but you sure make it easier *tight hug*
Thanks for the support, your a big help even if we just met a few weeks ago *hug*
Tell me he gets bathroom breaks!
Even worse, every morning, Jay Leno in one of his 500 cars orders one large drink and throws it in Conan's face! XD
And the fact that your family quarrels about different beliefs is natural. But the good thing is it's still the same God, and still same Jesus. Don't let it get to you, so long as they believe Jesus came to die for their sins then there isn't a problem ^.^
Sorry about the huge wall of text ^.^
So I just want to say, If you need someone to chat with, about anything, doesn't have to be about this or what happend, if you just want to bs and joke about shite, feel free to hit me up, man. Note me and I can give you my yahoo IM (no pressure, only if you want to)
Here's hoping you find some peace and I hope that people understand that you are still you and don't need to be treating you like you are made of glass.