Lol! Dude its okay that you dont call yourself a furry. All of what you said makes perfect and reasonable sense. I didnt even know "fluffy" was a term for a gay lol learn something new everyday X3

Mean either. Glad you took the message the right way. Think I want a more diverse creative name anyway. Still something to do with wolves though

I can understand why you don't want to tell your parents about being a furry; it can be awful hard to explain the sexual aspect of the fandom. Although I don't believe it's a large part of the fandom. I haven't shared with my family that I'm a furry either for the same reasons.

I have to admit that I wondered about the name for a moment. But you made it pretty clear otherwise. If you want to change it I don't think that anyone would mind or care. After all it is your name.

Yeah I think I wanted a very furry name and then I realized I didn't like all of the furry fandom. Should have been more conservative.

i only type short sentences

XDDD you dork!! But I think your short sentence says alot that you still like me as a friend. Thank you

well, i think you should tell them XP i mean, you're just a furry ^^ just chatting... right...? :o

I think you are over dramatizing man. The fluffy thing I only know from hearing it from someone that is gay but I don't know that it's real common use, man. Look, people are going to judge you by what you do and who you are, not your name.

Listen, I know what grief does to a person. you feel lost, confused, you feel like you don't know yourself and so you do everything you can to get back to good and to find a way to fit in and be normal.

That's what's happening now. You are making a mountain out of a mole hill. Remember that I kept saying "act as if". this isn't. this is writing a long journal saying "goodbye" to things. Dude, there's no reason for that. You don't have to defign yourself to other people. Just be you! People like you. They will like you for you.

You really don't need to put yourself through all this strife. I say you should right your story, flesh out your character, and if Vince is the name you really need for him, keep it.

Doing stuff like this, it's too intense for people. They get a bit pushed away by this. It's ok to be who you are, and it's ok not to have to explain it in full detail on the internet. I feel like I've not gotten through what I meant. Dude, if it helps, watch me. wath how I act, read what I say in my journals.

Notice it's kind of business with only a little bit about life and my views.

There is an art to being who you are and living for you. none of us know ourselves well enough. it's a learning process we all go through and it lasts all out lives.

So basically, in a nut shell, don't take this the wrong way but, you need to chill out.

Don't do anything, don't erase this journal, don't post another one, don't abandon this account, and for god sakes, stop beating yourself up! I know you are fragile right now, but you're becoming a bit neurotic, so you need to just step back and breath, find some peace and some balance in your head. Clear your mind and just forget that this was ever a problem and focus on something that makes you happy.

You can then deal with this with a clear head. Teust me dude, just let things be. The world isn't caving in, you haven't ruined your image, you haven't fallen in with the wrong crowd. You are really alright.

Except for the fact that you are grieving, and that, that is just there man. let it be there and go through it, I know it's tough. I've been there.

It's important right now to be very aware of how you are acting and how people are percieving it. The reason being is that because you are grieving, everything is intense for you. and unfortunately, that makes people kinda go "Woah." and back away.

So remember to breath, that's the most important thing, find a center and relax and let things go for just a little while. Ok?

I'm not going anywhere. I won't change my name either. I guess I'll take a step back and stop with these personal
journals. I'm not thinking of how you guys feel. Sorry, I didn't mean to dump another story. Just a hard time. I'll go to my music. It's always healed me. Fluffywolf isn't going anywhere and I'm still in the furry community. I need to heal, with my family. I think this is about my brother more than me being a furry. It's a lot of things besides being a furry. I think I'll put on another pumpkins album
and shut up now.

*pounces and cuddles* dude its cool, your going through rough times, heh, and trust me.. i have tried to tell my parents about a million times about being a furry, well IM HISPANIC lmao they think im going threw a phase haha meh whatevers i say XP, im always gonna be a fur, and so will you, no matter what your parents say or think if you decide to tell them.. hehe *nuzzles*

Don't worry I'll explain exactly what I like first then bring up the fact that many people accossiate themselves this way. Thanks for being on my corner when I thrash out like this. Your the best

Is Sebastian Bach still on that show?

GASP! he better be or you guys are getting another teary journal TwT

what? I am confused

I deleted it cause it was nothing but feeling
sorry for myself. Didn't want the lucky friend who didn't read to read the crap XD glad I deleted it before you read it.

so, Im the lucky friend? X3

Yes! Glad you didn't read it X3