Well Ive been seeing the signs for some time now. My dog... well hes a bit at the end of his life. Hes having alot of troubles standing up and climbing steps. seems half of his head is alittle caved in. One side of his face seems lazy. Ive noticed this thanks to my parents leaving him in my care as often as they did. My mom was the second to join in my thoughts. We just dont want him suffering anymore.

Ultimately, though, it is my fathers choice. He is his dog. Today he and my mother has spoke about it. My dad apparently got quiet. So it seems he is starting to understand. it feels time that we are all gettin ready to let go.

Tommy has been, hands down, the dog we all loved the most. Always smiling, never really understanding unhappy or angry. I know that everyone who has met him or even just seen him fell in love with him aswell. Our neighborhood all know him from the times he went exploring the neighborhood. They all seem to love him aswell. This is going to be one of the hardest things ill be going through when it happens. Togger because a grouchy old man at this age, and was let down on my way to a security job. That night was pretty hard. I dont think I would be able to face the world the day of or after when we finally let Tommy go.

So if i just disapear a couple nights you all know why. Its probly a month or so away. So its in a little bit. but im already shedding tears over him. I spent some time sitting with him. He just looked at me and started smiling happily. Shit this will be hard.


Thanks for listening to me blabber on. Ill be on my way to bed now

Night all!