Ok, I'm in Drama Club at my school and I THOUGHT I had some talent...but, after seeing who I was, I guess not. I got a character who doesn't SAY or SING anything what so freaking ever...Her name doesn't even need to be there. No, she is not one of those characters who just shows up for five seconds of the thing, no, she is someone who doesn't even need to be there. She could get out of the play and no one would fucking notice. :(

What makes me even more sad, mad, and depressed is that the SAME people got the SAME type of characters. SAME person got lead SAME person got lead male SAME person got villian. It just PISSES me off!!!! Why can't other people get a shot....?

Dammit, I'm just so fucking mad right now. I'm not going to get anywhere in life! I can't draw worth shit, I'm so fucking ugly, my singing isn't "up to date", and, now, I can't even act! :(

What's worse, is that my mom LOVES Annie (the play). I was hoping to get a part she would be proud of...but, instead I got some one who could skip all practices and do the play...I just...hate it.

I hate my life. I'm going to fucking say it. I know I'm most likely overreacting over stupid shit, but I thought that I could get something out of life by doing this and it just sucks for it to be said you suck. Even if no one says it, it's pretty clear what people think. I just...*sigh* I don't fucking know. I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know where I got the idea I would actually become something in this fucking world. It all adds up that's I'm a worthless piece of shit. I'm picked on, I'm single, NEVER had ANY type of relationship with anyone, I'm ugly as hell,and...well, you know...

Ugh, I don't even know what else to fucking say right now...