I am sick and tired of being pushed around by a kid. He pushes and pushes until I cannot control it any longer. I just lost my temper in the worst way, and he is continuing to push even while I type this. I would rather be dead that put up with this shit. I just want to step back to watch it all crash...Everything I had stacked so delicately. Everything I have done to try and get ahead. It's all fucked...I give...I have had it...I can honestly take no more. Never thought I would ever come to this point with one of my children. I can't cry...he is right there. All I know is to bleed. Well there goes 4 days of progress. Fuck it