Ok well sorry not bein on lately but I haven't had my itouch so it's been kinda hard. Anyway for those of you who don't know yet and I are MATES 8DDDDD. He's the best and I love him so much. But the reason for this is to explain how it all happened^.^

we knew each other for a few months and well at this time I was still dating katie. But a few two weeks or so ago I realized something. Haha it's really quite funny, but he was doing a love streaming of his poi routeine and Katie, my girfriend at the time, was watching him, and I wasn't able to. For some reason I got really mad about this... Because she was able to watch him and i wasn't, and I had always wanted to see his poi. So later i was thinking, why was I so mad?? Do I like him?..... Omg... I think I like him. And of course at this time I was feelin really bad cuz I felt like I was betraying her, and it made it worse because he is a guy, and I never felt that way about a guy before. So I tried to kind of not talk to him as much. But I just couldn't. I wanted to talk to him so bad. We would text nonstop all day during school and until late at night.

Then a few days ago I asked a good friend named zenny who knows fulgur well a question. I asked him if fulgur ever said anything about liking me. To my surprise, zenny said he talked about me all the time and how he was head over heels in love with me, though he was afraid to say anything cuz I was datin katie. So zenny and I talked for a while, and he convinced me ask fulgur about this.

So I texted him and asked what he would say if I had a crush on him (which was a complete understatement cuz I was actually head over heels in love with him too by this point), and he replied with what would I say if he had one on me too. So we now knew how we felt about each other. So I then talked to zenny what I should do... I was pretty scared at this point cuz I didn't want to admit the fact that I was bi still, and I didn't want to break katie's heart. Zenny told me a story. It was kinda long, but it made me finally realize that if I stayed with Katie I would be living a lie to myself and I would be giving her false love. It hit me like a brick wall... I thought about it for a day... And i was completely miserable cuz I knew in my heart that Katie and I were no more. And it wasn't because of anything she did. We weren't mad at each other, and she still loved me intensly. It was my fault because I had fallen in love with the most perfect person in the whole world and I couldn't deny it any longer.

So later that night I texted fulgur if he would be my mate.... The time between that message and his answer seemed like an eternity.... And he replied with the most joyous yes I have ever heard in my life. By this point my heart was pounding and continued to beat at the most insane speed and intensity throughout the night. The moment he said yes i couldn't stop smiling. I never felt so happy in my entire life, I nearly burst with joy and excitement. That night I barely slept and never wanted to stop talking to him.

The next day was brutal tho cuz I had to tell Katie.... And I felt so terrible about it cuz I knew it would crush her completely. However I came to find out she knew all along I had a thing for him... She just never wanted to tell me... She tool it really hard, and I got a stern talking to by another friend. Tho I needed to hear it cuz he was right that damn philosopher that he is. But my saddness didn't last long.. Cuz the moment I got home and was talking to the most perfectly awesome person in the entire world, I was right as rain again.

He's so funny and smart.
He knows exactly what to say to make me feel better
we have almost eveythg in common
I can tell him anything and he can do the same
I can be myself around him and not ever worry about him saying anything to upset me
he is the most amazing person who has ever I love him to pieces, and he shares the same equal love that I do for him
I never knew it possible that I could love someone this much and I cannot even describe how much I love him

we are happily mated and nothing will ever EVER change it


Zenny if you're reading this, I owe all of this to you, cuz if it wasnnt for you're help.. I wouldn't be with fulgur and I wouldn't be the happiest person person alive

and my thanks to Joe and Keegs too, both you guys were a huge help in bringing us together *hugs you both*