Ok so sleeping is impossible right now so yay!!! A new journal. Surgery is tomorrow (obviously why I can't sleep). Kinda nervous but not really. It's not fun goin under cuz like, you don't know what happens and all of a sudden you're lying in a bed and it's already over. It's just an eerie feeling. Worst part is I won't be able to pawoff for like a week cuz I can't get off the couch -_- lol.

Anyway the tv shows on at 3 in the morning are... Interesting to say the least. ^^; guess it's better than nothin. It's not like I'd be able to sleep anyway.

I'm gonna work on college fun stuffs while I'm laid up for a week. Any helpful tips would be greatly appreciated. It's a choice between two colleges At this point (that is if I don't decide to change my major to somethin in the medicinal field <--- long story). Needs lotsa scholarships otherwise I'll have to go to a local junior college first and I want outta this place like now!

Wish I could eat right now. I'm freakin starving! >.< stupid "no food or drinks after midnight before surgery" rule. I'm sure if I was able to eat somethin I'd fall asleep.

You know what else sucks? Being confused about myself again. Leads for a stressful life ya know? Don't be indecisive like me. If you're gay then accept it and live that life happily. Don't be me and wonder if you're doin the right thing, or if you're missing opportunities, or whatever else my mind won't leave me alone about. Maybe I should quit over analyzing things and just choose. Were it so easy.

Anyway enough melodrama imma try to sleep again. Heh cya all later. I'll be around more frequently for the next few days so hit me up on msn.