my mom been dieing of cancer and it been blocking me of doing my art job... and she gotten worst,,she may not see next week,,but,,, im ok with it since she never acted like a mom and gave me nothing but problems and i can safely say i tried my best for her,, i was a good son and she was,,well something else.. after a number of years of abuse and,,,well stressful events in my life i can move on once i move out,,,, i have not said my goodbye to her,,,and i never well that role is for the people she treated like family and sadly i was the only one that was not in that lil ring,,so. im gonna try to stay form being anger,,,being sad,,,being all that sad bull crab,, cause,, i was never member of the family.. as self center as it may sound ,,belie me when i say this,, you had to be here,,and don't judge me,cause i have not too them, there just a part of my life i just don't wanna remember or know,, im sorry for the art problem i been having and once this is under me it wel be moving on i promise,,plz for gave me and move on with me thank you