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I've Never Felt Better
15 years ago
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Just been inspired to try and express my thanks to everyone here.
For the entirety of last year, I was straight up proper miserable. Those that had the misfortune of knowing me will know a bit about that, many realised that my upbeat humour came from deep cynicism and hurt, and didn't want to know me any more. A few stuck. A few weeks ago, I'd pretty much had enough, and was literally two weeks away from seeing a doctor and getting myself some anti-depressants. There's no shame in that kind of thing any more, thankfully.
But before I got around to doing that, I went to a furmeet, and it cheered me up, instantly. I then went to another, and for the first time in about four years, I was actually happy. Another fairly important influence was discovering the music of Furries in a Blender. It made me cheerful on a more superficial level, as well as striking a little deeper too. Finding more great music by the same creator, as well as attending furmeets almost every weekend, helped me amass much happiness.
The perspective is odd. Some people continue to smoke, thinking that cancer is something they will never have, something that wont happen to them, so they don't worry about it. I realised, that was how I felt about happiness, about relationships, even just about having good friends. I felt like it was a nice idea, but it'd never happen to me. But it has. Because of the furry fandom, I am now genuinely happy.
The situation is still monumentally shit, truth be told. I'm still single, still poor, still unattractive, still hopeless and futureless. Those that speak regularly to me know that I work ceaselessly just to keep my head above water with the things we all have to do to lead a normal life. I'm not going to say that I don't care about all that, because I do. But I know that it doesn't mean that I can't be happy. Because I have you.
♥ Furries. ♥
I'll try to tonight reply back about the commission stuff now that stuff with mom is now over with and getting back to life again.
I realized a long time ago that the only real reason for me to live is to feel that greedy goodness when you have fun with your friends, make them happy and have them make you happy too. What else is there? I mean if there is any kind of afterlife or not, memories of things like that are the only coin I'd bring along anyway.
Cheers!
I'm so happy for you dude. Keep this optimism flowing! It will only attract more people :)
I've met you now, so I can say in concrete your a lovely guy and good things will come your way :]
If you go about it right furmeets are just made of happy, or some equally addictive euphoric substance (although that may be the early afternoon alcohol talking). Makes my week every single time :)
It will be nice to see more of you around.
It was like that on the London fur-walk. We were just a furry cloud, raining warm joy wherever we went. I was amazed, and had a smile welded to my face all day.
Probably not.
I want to do free art for the people I meet, but I hardly have the time.
Better than all the rest!
Glad things have changed for the better!
(If you're ever in Cleveland, lemmie know, We'll take in a 'crash-up derby'. Consider that an invitation.)
I've generally maintained that "those who get happiness the most are those that deserve it the least" - and I generally refer to this theory in terms of eBay. Those that have the least money, and thus need the item most, so they can catch up in life with the richer people, are outbid by those that have more money, and therefore don't have such an important need for the item to improve their life.
Does this mean that now I'm happy, I don't deserve it? Probably.
I've always been steampunk, but only in the last couple of years realised that others are doing it too, in a "really, you think 18th Century mechanics is cool?!" kind of way. I don't think I could do Second Life, on the basis that my First one takes up too much time.
just a simple hug. <3
if ya need any help or someone to talk to, you know i'm here for ya, right? glad you're feeling a little better.
Thanks <3
Also, thanks to everything Fur Affinity - the staff, the members, even the servers.
Your mileage may vary. But I wouldn't want to lose you to a disease my sister suffers from, and one that hasn't claimed her life because of the slight miracles of modern pharmaceutical chemistry.
I should add that I'm a lot nicer to be around because of 'em too! Paroxetine keeps me from RAEG-ing every time I walk into a desk. That adds to everybody's quality of life.
Anytime you come through Texas, pull up a couch and be my honored guest...